[CELIOS SERIES #1]
Pleasing people is not her thing. Living her life that is filled with regrets and disappointments is not new to her, she got used to it and she's not expecting that her stereotyped world would change someday.
At first, Grezeara S...
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My chest hammered as I watch him walk away. I inhaled a huge amount of air and exhaled it right away that seemed to be exaggerating. What am i thinking? Everything's okay. I shouldn't overthink this. It's not right.
Sa huli napagdesisyunan kong sundan siya papunta sa veranda. Hawak hawak ko ang dalawang kupita na may lamang wine na binili niya nang pumunta kami rito. I don't know what has gotten into him to suddenly asked me if we can go to my place. He rarely go here, 'dun ko na rin naramdaman ang biglaang pagbabago sa kaniya.
Inabot ko ang sa kaniya at tinanggap niya naman 'yon pero nanatili lamang siyang tahimik, tila bang may iniisip na napakalalim.
"Hey.." I held his face as he, on the other hand, was still succumbed by his thoughts. "Is there any problem? What are you thinking?"
I hugged him from behind. The ethereal bed of darkness that is surrounded by sparkling gems would surely notice our admiring gaze, but nevertheless, there's a deafening silence that took place in the atmosphere. It's not comfortable and I can't bear to stand it.. again. I know that there's something wrong between us. Hindi ako tanga para 'di maramdaman na may nagbago talaga.
And that change makes me anxious and bothered.
"What do you think of us, Zee?" he asked cautiously.
Napabitaw ako sa yakap at nagtatakang tinignan siya. I can't read him right now. Kinakabahan ako sa kung ano ang tumatakbo sa isipan niya ngayon.
"Why are you asking me that? What are you trying to say?"
My eyes are pleading, trying to hold back the thoughts that keeps on flowing in the back of my mind. Tears are unconsciously falling and mind filled with doubts and assumptions.
Ang saya saya lang namin kanina habang magkasama. Unless, the moments we shared awhile ago was only a facade? Pero kung 'yun rin naman pala ang magiging huli.. sana man lang sinabi niya 'di ba? I've seen this coming but I'm not yet prepared. Kahit kailan hindi ako magiging handa sa kung saan man ito patungo.
I don't have any past relationships before him. He's my first in almost everything, but I'm not dumb.
"Zee.." he diverted his gaze upon me. "I'm sorry for everything. I've been thinking about this before."
"Just say it, please.."
I stared at him, longing for affection-trying to see the emotions that I want him to show, but to no avail they were not visible on his visage.
His face was still left with no expressions. He's staring at me blankly like I bore him, like I don't matter to him anymore.
Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko kaya't napainom ako sa kupitang hawak hawak ko simula pa kanina. He said that he has something important to say after our unforgettable day and here we are, talking while I'm being clouded by too much fear.
