If you wanna know my story
you'd be sitting before me
I won't let myself cry
I may grin ungracefully
But, won't let you know why
After that, I'd approach you for a reason
And leave that exact instant
I'd lock myself in the restroom
Or on the other hand elsewhere
nobody would see me there
What's more, I'd cry
I'd cry my throat out
I'd look myself in the mirror
'God, How hard you tried.!'
After that, I'd put on some mascara
so you'd never realize I cried
at that point, I'daccumulate all the fake smiles
Also, giggle with you as I once did.
If you wanna know my story
And you'd be on the other side of the phone call
I'd simply reveal to you what happened
I'd simply disclose to you he didn't bother
to tell me my errors
my blemishes
my flaws
I'd reveal to you it just took a minute for him to change
And, he stated, "wait, until the vengeance."
I was stunned
so sucked
'What was my mistake?'
I was vulnerable
guiltless
thoughtless
'Oh please return, for God's sake '
I'd let you know everything
I'd chuckle
I'd never tell you I'm frail
you may feel my reluctance
my breaks between the expressions
Yeah! Because he changed so quick
Like has taken part in a long-distance race
If you wanna know my story
And we are on texts
I'd make you laugh hard
I'd send you those snickering emoticons
And pretend that I'm damn strong
Even after this time
it's insufficient
I don't have the foggiest idea whether I loathe him or not
there's a string
so feeble
with a knot
which couldn't be tackled
And, I'd take it up until now
any place I'd go
you'd say after I'd have finished speaking
"Such a solid young lady you're! So lighthearted"
No.
No, I ain't.
Had I been solid
I'd have overlooked him.
Despite everything,
I'm crying under my covers
listening to his voice recordings
reading our chat messages
recalling the memories
the moments we spend together
with tears running down my cheeks
each time I narrate the story
ugh, not a story
it was a crap
amess
a total chaos
my entire life has become a wreck.
