Hurts Like hell

What am I supposed to do?

                          Todoroki's pov         !!! Warning Cutting !!!

             I have always had to live up to my old mans expectations. I had enough of it I didn't care what he said I wanted to be a hero but I didn't  care if I was the best on earth  or if was better than All Might. I was laying in bed pain running though my body from my training  session with my dad today I had blue and black buses all up my body I had cuts and a black eye. I had to do something to numb the pain so I reached to the draw next to me and garbed the razor I had in there and I put to my skin and felt the cold blade run across my warm skin and saw the crimson colored blood run down my arm and counted 

1. worthless 

2. my dad 

3. no one cares 

4 then 5 then 6 then 10 I kept going till I couldn't count them anymore so I stopped and went to the bathroom and cleaned and washed the wound and I felt to much better I then layed back down in my bed and feel asleep 

                                                         ~Time skip because I am lazy~ 

          I got up and got dressed for school  and eat breakfast. I felt and the whole way to UA my thoughts were screaming at me all I herd was you worthless piece of trash no one loves you your mom and dad hate you just die and to be honest that is what I felt like doing everyday for months I walked up to the school remembered  my bruised eye thinking of excuse  as to what happened  if anyone asked I finally found and excuse and well of course made sure  my sleeve was down so no one would see and ask bout the bandages on my wrist. I walked in to see Deku's happy face and bright smile as soon as I saw that I felt a little better to see the smiling face of mu crush but knew I would never happen because my dad would never let me have friends let alone a boyfriend I sat and down I my seat not talking  to anyone as usual. Then out of the blue Deku walks up to me and asked why I had  a black eye. I hesitated at the question because I had for got my excuse. Then answered I hit myself on accented with my ice while training I said in a voice I hopped was believable but he gave me a look of I don't believe a word you said. 

         Deku's pov 

                     I could see that  todoroki was lying to me but I didn't want to push him  and just said you can tell me anything I am here for you whenever you need me hears my number xxx-xxx-xxxx you can call or text anytime you need to I said as calm and not in a worried town as I could but to be honest it was hard because I was worried and cred so much for my Shoto what did I just say my Shoto um... no I said to myself  he took the paper and gave me and appreciative thank you but I could hear the pain and sarrow in his voice as he said thank you and it made he even more worried for the only boy I have ever loved what I didn't mean that but well face it I did.  

                                                     ~time skip to lunch brought to you by icy hot~ 

        I walked into the cafeteria got my food and went to sit with my friends when I realized shoto I mean Todoroki was sitting alone so I went to sit with him. I got over to his table and sat down with him he seemed surprised and bit taken back when someone sat with him then I thought back an since the first day of school no one has set with him at lunch at all . He looked up at me and I saw sadness, desperation, and depression in his eyes. I then asked if he was ok but that question didn't register with him at first but I asked again and he heard me this time he heard me and he got up and ran ran away from me I looked surprised and then realized my shoto ugh I said that again never mind that what if he does something bad so I got up to go after him I ran all the way till I heard A loud cry come from the bathroom.  

To Be Continued 

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