#NotADayGoesBy That I Don't Wish ...

If you ask me how I'm, I'd say 'just fine',

But if you could read my mind,

Not a day goes by that I don't wish you're mine.

You're the guiding light that came into my life,

When it was all grey and dark cold night.

I wish you knew how much I love you.

Without you, the days are never the same,

But nobody could feel the pain,

That shoots through my veins and drives me insane.

They say I should move on, but where will I go?

Is there a place to store the undivided pain and not let it grow?

In the morning hues, I've a cold heart,

I go out and pretend to have a good laugh.

But I think they see in my eyes, I've got it hard.

And there you are, unaware of my beating heart.

When the night gets young,

I put my headphones on,

Slowly dancing on your songs,

Then I lay down and close my eyes,

And see you through my heart.

Seconds turn to minutes, minutes to hours and days,

Asking myself, "When will I move on?"

But I stay thinking, praying, crying, cursing, and lying,

I die a little more every night.

You have the key to my warded heart

But when I wake up from the dream,

It turns into a dagger, cold and sharp,

Twisting in my heart,

Leaving the blood, splattered like an art.

Not a day goes by that I don't think of 'how it could be'.

The deep conversations, midnight laugh,

The morning cuddles and kisses in the dark,

A love-filled stroll with our laced fingers,

Ending with lips locked.

I fantasize 'bout declaring my love,

Screaming from the rooftop.

When we finally meet,

I'll remember everything,

Your blue orbs twinkling while playing the guitar,

The contagious laugh, and untold stories behind your scars.

You're a dream I'm running from,

A fantasy I keep building on.

I'm falling in love with the blue in your eyes,

And the harmony in your voice.

The world sees the guy who has it all,

Cash and glory,

But, all I wanna know,

is the guy behind the fog.

You're the sunlight that folks the dark corners of my world,

I promised my heart, I'll not dream of you,

'Cause it hurts too much.

Yet I often find myself standing alone

Beneath the night sky,

Assigning your name to every bright star,

Hoping that someday you'll hear me,

And allow me to be your part.

Little do you know,

It's my little secret to follow you,

Through the darkest of nights, to the beaming highs,

From skyscraper heights to the bottom of life.

I want to be with you like the shimmer of moonlight.

Inexplicable as you are,

I wanna hear the symphony of your heart.

All I wish is to be with you,

When you need someone to hold onto,

To pull you close and whisper,

And fit our broken pieces together.

Embrace all your imperfections,

With love, a little deeper.

But I'm wondering if I'll ever live my dream?

And know the real you,

The spark behind this dark?