My Life

07.10.19 + 08.10.19 + 10.10.19

07.10.19
9.15 AM:

Another Class test is done.
I'm the first one who finished by now.
That kinda sucks.
It could be an A again.
Hopefully it is one.
I mean I could need it.
This time it's German.
Grammar is easy.
I'm alone.
I'm bored and I don't know what to do.
The day before yesterday I had a two hour conversation with A. via WhatsApp.
It's been crazy.
We have sorta the same humor.
That's great.
Today before school I asked him if he would trust me because my best friend is lying to me like all the time but he has no idea that I know.
A. said yes. I like that.
I mean if he trusts me I did nothing wrong.
It's so sweet when we talk in person.
He is like kinda shy but so honest and kind.

08.10.19
1

0.33 AM

Math class test.
I'm done.
It's gonna be an A again.
I like myself right now.
I hope A. is doing well.
I'm sure that he will get this.
I'm an optimist when it comes to him.
Maybe it's because I love him.
My teacher has just stolen my class test to correct it.
I hope nothing is wrong.
That would be bad.
I'm shaking.
My teacher looked at me a little bit confused.
He showed me my class test.
It's an A.
I love maths.
I don't know it's calming me down.
Like A.
He is calming me down too.
There is a girl sitting next to me and she is soing something wrong and I want to help her but I can't.
I wanna help A. but he is too far away.

UPDATE:
A. has a C.

2.40 PM:

I'm on my way home right now.
I didn't want to go home at first.
Because A. waited with me.
But I didn't want to annoy him so after 40 minutes of waiting I finally took the tube.
He is a great boy.
Everybody who knows him says that he is not a bad/fuck boy and he isn't but he says.

10.10.19
10.05 PM:

Smoking.

I don't like it.
But I do it.
Like A.
But we both don't do it much.
But when we smoke it calms us down.
Today was the first time I saw him smoking.
I didn't felt like this was the A. I know.
But he looked damn good.

Sorry that I'm late.

N.