soothe 🌷 tracob (DISCONTINUED)

nine (part two)🌷

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"what do you mean if you don't want it?"

"jacob always talks about how our upbringings are similar but what he fails to realize is that he managed to come out of it. i haven't."

i stand up and turn to isabella. "sure i am a model now and i am making a decent living but that is because of luck. if i didn't run into zoe with my friends i wouldn't be here. and even now my family still struggles to make ends meet, we aren't lucky enough to get into schools with sports scholarships... barely any academics i just-."

i sniff and wipe my nose with the back of my hand. "i just don't know what to d-do."

"obviously it your body, it's your decision but..." isabella says standing up. "jacob wants kids... he's wanted kids since i was pregnant with adam. i know he's saying that he doesn't want kids right now with what's going on but he does."

she wipes my tears away with her sleeve. "and troye... you have come a long way from where you were almost a year ago. i know it may not seem like you have but i'm sure your friends and family are proud of everything you have done for yourself."

i place my hand over my flat stomach and look down at it. 

that's a whole different life in me. something that jacob and i brought into this world... even if he didn't know about it. there's going to be a person in me eventually. a person that's going to resemble the man i love. 

before i could get a word out jacob walks out with adam giggling on his hip. i look at the two of them... mainly i look at the smile on his face. 

"i think adam had a nice dinner..." jacob says. "you guys okay out here?"

Isabella looks over at me before nodding her head. "yeah we should be. you guys hungry?"

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"there has to be a reason why hunter was able to walk away so quickly like that." Isabella says as we all sit around the table. 

jacob takes a bite of his broccoli. "that's what i've been trying to figure out... i plan on going to where he was supposed to be held to see if i can get anything."

"what about the company."

jacob sighs. "zoe is standing ceo while i get some of this figured out." 

I've been picking at my food for the last five minutes as they talked about everything. i had lost my appetite from my conversation from bella or maybe it's just the pregnancy. either way i wasn't hungry and i really just wanted to go home a lay down.

jacob had begun to notice and looked over at me. "you should eat troye."

"i'm not really hungry."

jacob raised an eyebrow. "are you sure." 

"yeah, honestly, i kinda feel sick anyway... i'm going to go lay down on the coach if that's okay."

before jacob could say something bella but in throwing her arm across his chest. "yeah that's fine."

jacob and bella seemed to have a silent conversation before jacob nooded his head as a way of saying okay. i push my chair back, get up and head into the living room. when i got in there i laid on the couch and looked up at the ceiling. 

a lot has happened to me within the last year and a half and, to top it all off... i'm pregnant. i sat up and as i did adam started crawling over to me. once he got within grabbing distance of the couch he grabbed it and pulled himself up. he started babbling and bouncing as if he was trying to tell me something. 

"what is it adam," i say picking him up and sitting him on my leg. "you wanted to hang out with your uncle troye?"

adam laughs before flopping onto my chest. i smile, ruffle his hair and kiss the top of his head. "can you tell that you're gonna have a little cousin." i whisper.

adam looks up at me and tilts his head. 

"that's right... but uncle jakey doesn't know yet, but your mommy does."

jacob and bella walked into the room. jacob sat down next to me and then Isabella sat down on the loveseat diagonal to us. "if you wanted to hang out with adam you could've just said so." jacob said jokingly.

"he came over to me... i think he just wanted to be with his uncle."

jacob smiled as he stood up and stretched. "well bella i'd hate to dine and dash but troye and i have a lot to work through."

i got up and walked over to bella handing her adam. she nods her head towards me. "remember what i said troye, okay? i want you to keep me updated on whatever it is you decide."

"i will."

jacob walks up behind me. "come on troye, let's go."

we bid our goodbyes and show ourselves out. jacob opens my side of the car letting me in before walking over to his side. 

"what were you and my sister talking about?" jacob said as he got settled in the car. 

"just helping me through something but i think i know what i'm going to do about it."

he looks over at me. "okay... are you going to be alright?"

i look over at him and smile. "yeah i think i'll be okay."

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hi.

long time no see. 

im bad at updating, i've been focusing on school. sorry. 

alright until i type again.