It's been a while, and I have calmed myself down.
I must apologise to Mikasa, now.
I was being such an idiot, and what I said came out completely wrong.So wrong.
I wish I could take it all back.
She was trying to comfort me and in return, I treated her like shit.I exhale, and prepare myself to face her.
I open the door to my bedroom, Mikasa is not sitting on the dining table or the sofa in the living room.
I wonder where she is.I look through to the back garden; she's not there either.
I'm start to panic now.
I dash for the front door and open it.
"Mikasa!" I shout. My only response are the birds flying from the trees.
No, where is she?!
"Mikasa!!" I call out again, and there is still no sign of her.
I run back inside and look everywhere I can.
The shed, all the bedrooms, the attic, the basement: all the rooms you could think of.
When I check the stables, I see that Mikasa's horse is gone.
She's not here...
Fuck.I feel my legs give way, I drop.
The pain in my throat is shortly relieved, as I start to cry.
"Mikasa..." I mumble. My cheeks begin to sting and itch, but I don't care.
I'm so stupid.
Why, why?
I feel a gagging sensation, and I enclose my eyes in my hands.
I can't believe this. Where is she?
It's all my fault! Anything could've happened to her, anything can happen to her, and I won't be there to help her.
What have I done?* * *
It's late now. I'm still in pain, and I won't let Mikasa escape my thoughts.
The least I can do is pray for her safety.
The cabin feels empty without her, and I feel hollow.
I can't stop worrying.
I'm so scared, so, so scared.
I grip on to the blankets tightly.
"What are you doing, Eren?" I ask myself frustratedly.
I have one thing to do. Just one thing.
I've got to find her, but where do I even look?
It doesn't matter, because I will find her.
No matter what.* * *
I'm very grateful for his horse, I wouldn't know what I'd do if I had to walk.
I've got a coat to hopefully sustain a decent amount of heat, some food stuffs
and a bag of camping supplies and tools.
The wind is harsher than usual, but luckily it doesn't it affect my horse's walking speed.
She couldn't have gone far, not in a few hours. I don't know how fast she travelled, however.
Damn it.
I flip the reins, and my horse develops speed.
I avoid the forest and take a different route; Mikasa wouldn't have gone through there. That would lead to the beach.
Actually... She might have went there.
I quickly turn around and go in that direction.
I see the moonlight shimmers on the ocean, and as soon as we step on to the sand, we stop. I look from left, to right, to left again.
She's not here and I don't even know if she has been here either.
I wipe my face with both of my hands, and prepare to head back.* * *
It's been so long. It's so painful, how long this is taking.
I just want to see her and say how much I love her, and how sorry I am, for everything.
The horse has slowed down now, out of fatigue.
I lay my head on its mane.
I'm so tired.
That's not going to stop me from searching for her though.
I close my eyes, and I feel myself drift off slowly...
That's until I feel a light shine in my eye.
I squint and then open them.
A light post. Wait, what? A light post?
I lean up immediately, and I stare at it as we move further and further away from it.
I turn around, and there's another!
The lantern is hooked onto the wood and a small light flickers inside, shining a dim, little light. Enough to guide us through the now dark lands.
As I look ahead, there are more lanterns in the distance. Relief flushes through me as I realise something.
There are more humans out here.
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My Beloved Mikasa | Book Two
FanfictionEren awakens from his deep sleep, and Mikasa and himself believe that things will actually change for the better. The pair start to develop their new lives together and have high hopes for the future ahead of them. Unfortunately, nothing is perfect;...