THOUGHTFUL BIN (JOURNAL)

I: ala-una

I turned on my mobile data, hoping that something would make me laugh or so. But I ended up seeing chat bubbles that defined my loneliness.

"Ang tanga ko sa part na akala ko may nararamdaman na din sakin crux ko." He said.

I tried to shrug the moment off my mind. Ease the seconds overthinking about who could possibly be that person. Then, I had finally built the confidence to ask him who his crush was.

All I received were,

"Yall dont have to know,"
"It wont benefit yall,"

Oo. Umasa ako. Akala ko pinagkakatiwalaan na niya muli ako. Pero hanggang ngayon, hindi. Masakit man isipin na hindi ka niya pinagkakatiwalaan, pero kailangang tanggapin ang mapait na katotohanan.

Hindi naman masamang umasa. Pero rapat lang na handa kang tumayo ng maayos ng may kasamang dignidad kung sakaling mailatag ang katotohanan.

You have to build an armor made of the strongest materials on Earth; make it the best armor that ever existed and make sure that neither the stab of a hundred swords nor the fall of a million words would break the suit.

The truth will set you free, but first, it will piss you off.

- ala-una