Complications With Love.

Chapter 1-Intro

As time goes by part of me always thought a crush is just a crush and I could easily get over it, I could easily get over her. I guess not. Since I was 15 there was this one person that was always on my mind; her personality, the ways she laughs, her smile and most of all her undeniable beauty. I just turned 19 and I'm sorry to admit it but I still can't shake my feelings for her. I've never had a girlfriend.........I know it's sad but it's not that I'm not interested it's just that I can't bring myself to talk to anyone. In my mind no girl would even look in my direction, that's one of the reasons why I'm so fixated on her I guess. She is one of my closest friends so it was easier to tell her how I feel.

But she didn't feel the same way.

Now we are miraculously attending the same University and it's kind of awkward. I mean it's technically my fault seeing that we had a good thing going on and I came in and ruined it by confessed my love. Uhhh why did I have to like her, cause now it's just weird between us. We never know what to say to each other, whenever we speak there's always this awkward silence that's drowning us both. It's like we don't know each other anymore.

"ANDREWS!!!!", my lecturer Mr. Dynaro shouted, "I'm sorry to have interrupted your daydreaming session but get your head back in my class or leave", He said sternly with a hint of sarcasm. This caused some to laugh while others just stared.

"How about you redirect your attention from out the window to your text book, read", he said firmly.

"I'm sorry Sir, what page are we on" I said shyly.
"56", the girl next to me whispered.
As I started reading my mind drifted back and forth between my previous thought and the words on the page. In the end I did not take in any of the information, it was almost like I never read.

Finishing I eased out of my seat, "Sir can I go to the bathroom, please?"
All he did was nod his head indicating a 'yes' causing me to head to the door.

As I left the class I felt a weight lift off my shoulders.
"Finally" I whispered under my breath, "I'm alone". I'm not much of a fan of public spaces, I can't help but feel out of place when I'm around large groups of people.
Luckily there was no one else in the hallway and I made my way to the bathroom. It was empty so I went into a stall and sat on the toilet seat.

Fifteen minutes later I'm still sitting there staring at nothing in particular, just thinking. I should probably get back to class and get my stuff cause it ended 5 minutes ago. Stepping out the stall I was greeted with a familiar face.

"Jason Andrews, where have you been hiding, I barely see you around school" he said happily fist bumping me.
"Haha I'm here man, just doing what I gotta do" I said smiling.
"Alright cool man good luck with everything, I gotta head out my girl is waiting"
"Cool see you around"

Even Marcus has a girlfriend. I always thought that he was like me, we grew up together in the Anguilla now we're both in London finishing out degrees. By the way mine is in Accounting and Finance
..........................Yes I want to be and Accountant.
Throughout all the years that I have known him I never saw him with a girl. I kinda thought he was gay at some point but that changed when I caught him watching straight porn and jacking off in the bathroom that day...............Uhhhhhh gross. I had to rinse my eyes after that sight.

It's sad that we barely see each other these days though, but it is what it is.