So like... wow I su ck.
My pride will legit be my downfall, Math is my worst subject and I was having so much trouble with a few problems in class today but like... never called for help???
The teacher came around like 3 times asking if we needed help and each time on the inside I was like "Oh my GOD just ask for help you don't even know the people sitting next to you they won't judge you" but I would just sit in silence like "😐 no I'm good." and just... This dumbass bitch™️
My pride actually us going to kill me. On one hand, it's like "you've never needed help before you're advanced now act like it and figure this shit out since we've LITERALLY been learning this for the past few weeks" and the other side is like "ASK FOR HELP YOU PISS POSSUM DO YOU WANT TO ASK FOR HELP AND GET BETTER GRADES OR GET BUMPED DOWN TO REGULAR MATH AND DISAPPOINT YOUR WHOLE FAMILY???" I don't even think I have pride, it's just all the expectations people have set on me over the years for being above my other peers and now I don't want to lose those expectations. I don't want to fail.
But math is a BITCH and just HAS to make me question my worth like some dumb hoe :)))
On the bright side, the teacher's really sweet and I sat with my friend-crush on the bus today, we talked and it was fun.
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Vents n' stuff.
RandomYa boi hasn't been feeling very Gucci lit, and I can't complain in messages so have this shitty book instead y'all.
