Story Of My Emotion

Euphoric Sensitive Feeling

Im still skipping the song
Some song that brings old memories
Memories that ignite old passion
Passion that crumbles into nothing

I dont think emotion can be healed that easy
I just think it takes time
Maybe a short one or maybe their whole life
Its a pain in the ass

But...why?

I still want to be with someone
I still want to be loved
Am I not starting another journey to heartache?
Or is it that loneliness has a way to makes me search for another lonely soul?

It still scares me to start a new relationship
Scared the shit out of me
Sometimes I feel like I am not enough to be with someone new
And I would only lie directly in front of them

My selfishness knows no bound
The selfishness to feel in love, to be with someone who gets me
But why do I feel selfish?
Is it wrong?

Someone actually told me that I should just stay with my son
Just raise him alone
And I was thinking that is the cause why I feels it
The feelings of selfishness of loving another man

Should I stop?
And maybe I will meet another or I will not?
Who knows
Life is it sometimes is funny

This melancholic is starting again
Im starting to write again
Im starting to sing again
And im starting to create again

This feelings enveloping me
I dont know what is it
Its just makes my sensitivity heightened up
And leaves me feeling everything

I dont really how to deal with this
I dont know how my son will fit with all this slightly euphoric feeling
I hope it stays positive
And put calmness on my chaotic life