Worst memory

Part One

A sigh escaped from her mouth, her back pressed against her silk baby blue sheets - a thin blanket covering her from the waist on down. The crack of dawn peeked though her curtains, the sky matching her sheets in color. She felt heavy and big - then she looked down at the round mountain she called her stomach. 'I almost forgot ' she thought to herself, how could she forget about this guy? She felt a tickle in her stomach, it wasn't the baby, it was the butterflies. She felt so nervous to have a child - her first child. Her first child at thirty two years old. She sat up in her bed unable to go back to sleep on a Saturday morning listening to the steady breathing of him. Them. The breathing was so in sync while hers was unsteady. Her mind began to wonder; the 'what if's ' the ' hows' and ' whys' came to mind. And for some odd reason, she even questioned him. She turned her head to the person on her left side. His back facing her, she reached out to him, letting her fingers lightly touch his messy twist. Larry, her 'Big baby' she thought. She kept a pleasant smile on her face, her big baby that had a past filled with girls.
' Will you ever cheat on me ? ' She questioned in her mind, referring it to Larry, slowly backing her hand away when he showed signs of movement. Slowly she turned towards her left. ' Or will you?' Reaching out for her other Big baby, Laurent - his back also facing her, she slightly tingled her fingers in his fro.
These two were her life line, she lost so many people that she called friends and family because of their relationship. No one understood the bond the three of them had. The love they shared. For a second, she almost felt as though she didn't deserve them, she questioned their relationship before but this time was different. She was pregnant, eight months to be exact and there was no "up and leaving". The fear and insecurities about their relationship filled her mind, she needed to get up and get out of the bed - walk around some. Carefully she slipped out of the bed, wobbling towards her kitchen; a seat by the window awaiting for her right there, she sat down, watching the sun rise in complete silence as she rubbed her stomach. "Bébé ?" (Baby) A bit startled by the voice that broke the silence, meeting eyes with Laurent who sported only sweat pants and no shirt. Laurent was followed by a yawning Larry coming around the corner in a wife beater and boxers. Each had given her a piece of clothing for her to sleep in. "Guys go back to bed... I'm just watching the sunrise."
"Lier.." Laurent walked over towards her pulling up a chair, "W-what?" she questioned. "Is true. You been doing this for a week. Something is wrong" Larry stated, standing by the kitchen counter letting the faucet water run before placing a cup under the running water. Larry then walked towards the two, also grabbing hold of a chair.
"Tell us..." He said while passing her the cup of water. "G-Guys.. Nothings wrong. Ive just been thinking a lot"
"About what?" Laurent tone was a mixture of seriousness and worry, it caught her by surprise leaving her mouth to hang open. How was she going to be able to tell the boys about how she had doubts on their relationship? The thoughts of feeling lonely again or how she couldn't shake this bad feeling she had since the beginning of the week. "Please speak.." Laurent had spoken in the softest tone, they knew her too well to know something was eating at her. The both of them studying her; her gorgeous brown eyes,skin that was the color of almond, high cheek bones, and brown hair that stopped just above her shoulders. Finally she pulled herself together, "Guys" She said as she struggled to stand. The boys were soon to stand and help her but she quickly stopped them in their tracks - she proceeded to walk towards the 'fridge. She wobbled, she could feel the boys watch her, they watched her carefully - ready to pounce out of their seats to catch her from falling. Last time they weren't there. Once the refrigerator was in arms reach, she pulled it open. "Guys.." She spoke, " I'm complet-" She paused, this feeling forced her heart to fall. It felt like a release, like piss, her eyes suddenly grew wide.
"What?" They asked in unison, her eyes dropped down to look at the pool of clear liquid. "My- My" She stuttered. "Shit!" "Oh my god!" The both of them rushed towards her, Larry picked her up bridal style while Laurent fetched to gather him and his twins clothes. "Is gonna be okai." Larry whispered into her ear before placing a gentle kiss on her forehead.
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"Try to push!" The doctor yelled. "I-I cant do it!" The pain was unbearable, she tried her hardest to keep hold of the boys hands but it was all too much for her. The early birth, the pain and the bad feeling that was still at the back of her mind. Larry held her hand tighter, she forced herself to look at Laurent whom was on her right side- his eyes were filled with so much pain. It ached at her heart, when her eyes came into contact she saw the regret. "Lau-" her voice cracked, she felt so drained. Laurent's face became even more hurt when he noticed how bad she looked.
"Doct'a (doctor) whats wrong with her?!" Larry yelled over her head, the worry in his voice began to break her heart, it forced her eyes to break from Laurent's and land on Larry. The sight of his face was just as bad as Laurent's, she didn't like to see the two men that was the happiest people break down in front of her eyes. She felt like she was the cause of this.

"We'll have to do an emergency C-Section" Fear quickly set in for the three of them, emergency ? "W-will my baby be okay ?" She asked as the sweat trickled down her face, the doctor paused for a moment staring at her - "Of course Ma'am, we're worried about You" "What do you mean?" Laurent questioned, The doctor was going to reply; "Begin the C-Section" she cut the doctor off. Everything was all so fast, before she knew it he was ordering the boys to leave the room. "Bébé we just outside Okai?" Weakly she nodded giving them a faint smile.

Nervously Larry bit at his fingernails both of them beyond nervous, their first child. Laurent used Larry shoulder to lean on, "Larry I feel horrible..: " Laurent muttered loud enough in French. "About getting her pregnant..?" Larry questioned, Laurent nodded in response. "More like not knowing what to do, she is in so much pain"

"Mmmmm" Larry didn't know what to say, "You know she called out to me?" "Yeah.. I heard her. We must have looked so terrified. But its like we cant help it.. we're gonna be fathers but our Baby mother looks sick"

"Larry...me an' you been through some things. but not once have we been this shaken.Usually dads-to-be are nervous but carry smiles on their faces.. We're not carrying those smiles." He had a point, the boys looked a mess.

"Do you have a feeling ?" Laurent questioned Larry after an hour into the surgery. Laurent's and Larry attention was brought by two nurses running opposite way from down the hall. They quickly shot up from their seats, pacing down the hall way. They noticed the door was a bit opened as a noise all too well pierced through, Larry panicked fully pushing the door open.
"Bébé ?" The boys hearts crumbled into pieces then to dust, their eyes blurred as their ears were filled with the sound of the EKG being flat lined.

Authors notes:
So this story is old as well lol. 2013 . Which was my damn prime of making stories okay lol this is completed and only has two parts.