So, lemme start by saying that for a really Long time. I've been battling with myself. Always questioning my gender identity and just deciding that it's easier coming out saying I'm just a "lesbian". But every time i feel bad about my body (pretty much every day)I battle with myself about this kinda thing. I always get to the point where I think, "but I'm not happy". I'm not happy with my body. If I'm just a lesbian and I have a Girlfriend and I dress masculine, why am I still so dissatisfied with myself. I decided to be truthful to myself. Quit the bullshit and actually just accept it. So I did. I just kinda came to terms with it. I kinda put everything together in my head and just came out with it and said "dude stop fucking around. You're trans". I have been battling with this dissatisfaction for 9 years never being able to accept it. Never wanting to truly dig deep into it and acknowledge it. Thinking that my dysphoria was just me not liking my body like I even tried to convince myself maybe I have an eating disorder. (If you knew me. You'd know that's not possible). Food and I are inseparable. So..... I just kept trying to push it down. Until now. 9 years and counting of feeling to fucked over my body over my voice over everything. Wishing I wasn't me. I want to start my process. Because I'm positive. And I know who I am.
Yours faithfully
-Mateo
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I'm a boy.
Non-FictionI've recently accepted the fact that I'm trans after a Long time of making excuses for why I feel certain ways about certain things. So, Why I'm writing this is because I would like others to maybe see if they feel the same way. I'm accepting myself...
