Because This Is My First✔️

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Chapter Two : Because This is How we feel.
Date : XX-XX-XX
P.O.V. : Kenma Kozume

" Ne, Kenma do think Kageyama and Oikawa are dating?." Hinata asked staring up at the sky with his drink hanging from his mouth by the straw. I choked on mine coughing a bit uncontrably before turning my attention towards Hinata who sat there without a care looking up at the clouds. " They've been sneaking off together a lot as of late and they didn't bother telling us anything. So they must be dating." 

" Why do you assume there dating?." I asked scooting closer to Hinata. " They could just be hanging out." 

" Yeah, but why be all secretes? I saw him sneak away from practice the other day just to go sit and talk with Oikawa. Don't you think its a bit weird?." 

" Yeah..." I answered quietly laying down next to him watching the clouds with him." Does it bother you that they might be in a same sex relationship?." 

" Nope, not really." He replied nonchalantly placing both arms under his head like a pillow for his head. " I would be freaking happy if they were, there's no reason for them not to be together. Love is love there shouldn't be anything getting in the way of that." Hinata said getting into a seating position grinning at me. " I wished they would come out and tells already. The wait is killing." He said sitting crisscross rocking back and fourth. 

An unsettling silence fell between us nobody said anything for a while and just stared off into other direction. This has never happened before it only stared recently, usually we'd have so much to talk about but for some odd reason everything felt so different now. Our relationship was slowly changing and i didn't like that, change is so scary cause you could never know if its changing for the good or the bad. I don't know about Hinata but recently i felt this sudden urge to love him more then usual its like the relationship we have now, the amount of love we have for each other isn't enough anymore, i want it to be more but i don't know if Hinata feels the same way. 

" Hinata--."

" Kenma--." 

We both called out each others name at the same time. This cause us both to laugh from the awkwardness of the whole thing. 

" You go first." He gestured for me to go ahead. 

" Well um i don't really know how to say this, so i'll be blunt." He nodded his head with a serious look on his face. " But have you noticed how are relationship...has been sort of odd as of late?." I asked him trailing off slightly.

" You noticed that too, huh.." He trailed off bring his knees to his chest hugging it." When did you start noticing it ?." Hinata ask resting his forehead on his knee his expression looking rather sad. It hurt to see him like that, i wish i never brought this whole thing up. Why am i so stupid?. 

" For awhile now." I replied sitting in the same exact position he was in. 

" If were being honest i noticed it too." 

" Oh?."

" So what should we do about it?." He asked me turning his head in my direction. After a moment of silence he spoke again. " Tell me how you feel, i want to know." Hinata said in a soft tone of voice. 

'How do i feel?' those words kept lingering in the back of my head as i tried finding the words to tell him what i was think,what i was feeling and what i wanted to do. I loved how patient he was with me, he didn't rush an answer out me. He knew how terrible my social skills were and how i had trouble expressing myself, he didn't care if it took all night he patiently waited for my reply and that made me so happy. 

" Can i love you just a bit more? This amount just isn't enough anymore." I told him honestly letting my dirty blond hair fall into my face slightly so it could cover the redness of my face. Hinata stared at me eyes wide open which made me blush more. " You asked.." I told him quietly burying my face into the palm of my hand. 

" I feel exactly the same way.." He said softly his cheeks turning just as red as mine were. He rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly as he's eyes moved from place to place finding it difficult to look at me. " I don't really know how to put it into words exactly but you've been on my mind a lot lately, whenever i am thinking really hard about something or spacing out you always appear, and its not just that but--." He placed my hand gently against his firm chest where his heart is located. " Whenever your around me, my heart starts to beat really fast too." 

Another unsettling silence fell between us, we both stared into each others eyes our cheeks flushed from the conversation we were having with each other. I let my head hung low slightly but Hinata pulled my head up by my chin making me look at him, i chuckled slightly rubbing my right arm softly. " Can i kiss you?." Hinata asked. My eyes widened when those words left his mouth, i bit my lower lip and nodded my head. Hinata cupped my face in his hands and brought my face closer to his closing the small distance between us planting his soft lips against mine. My heartbeat quickened, i felt butterflies in the pit of my stomach all the cliche symptoms of when someone was in love was coursing through my body. Did this mean i was in love with Hinata? Did he feel the same as well?. i am so confused right now.

Hinata broke the kiss letting my face slip out of his hands, he smiled widely and pressed his forehead against my shoulder chuckling. I didn't get what was so funny at all, but one thing i did understand was that i just kissed one of my best friends and i liked it very much.