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I don't know whats happening but i'm thinking me and Brandon are drifting apart...

We aren't as happy as 5 month ago and i think it's better if we end things, i want to focus on myself and i want to be ready for this it just ain't the same anymore. I called Brandon and said al be there in 10 minutes.

I came in and he tried kissing me, but i went straight to the living room, he just looked weird at me.

-Bran: Mmh, okay; but whats up?
-me: B...i love you, i really do but we're like drifting apart..i think its
-Bran: No.. you ain't doing this, we can work this out; i saw his eyes starting to water
-me: No B, it's better if we break up; i started to cry; i'm sorry
-Bran: I'll never stop loving you...
-me: I need to go
-Bran: Can i atleast get a hug?
-me: You know if i hug you, i'll come back to you, so please just let me leave, please
-Bran: We can work this out, please don't go
-me: Brandon leave me alone
-Bran: Did you cheat? Found someone better?
-me: You know i would never, bye..

and with that i leaved, i opened my car and started crying, tears just wouldn't stop streaming

@brandon_arreaga: It's not goodbye it's just see you later❤i love you with all I've got🔐

FAN50: What happened?

ZIONKUWONU: I'm crying

ISABEL.VUANGUI: See you soon ig...

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@isabel.vuangui: Nothing lasts forever...

BRANDON_ARREAGA:😥

BEANZ: What happened?

FAN43: Why is she crying?

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That day, those months i felt terrible without Brandon, but it was time..to let go

a month later

I was scrolling on Instagram until i saw a post we're many BEANZ we're tagging me in

@prettymuchshaderoom: Does this means he and Isabel broke up?

BEANZ: Noo. my fav couple broke up

FAN1: She was ugly anyways

N3: Maggie is prettier

FAN10: Eww

"I'm glad he moved on.."that was the only thing i could think about

I just couldn't take it anymore, i hired a house on the beach for 2 months, cause i need to find myself again. I need to sort things out..i just need to go for awhile...

I start writing a letter for my girls when they'll get home:

Dear chickas,

You know i love you guys with whole my heart, but i just need to do this, so please don't call me or text me, cause i won't pick up. I just need some alone time, i need to find myself again, love myself, take care of myself for myself. Euricx you and Nick deserve each other enjoy every moment with each other, Destiny i love you little sister take care of my bestie and Shannon i know you and Edwin still like each other so talk things out. I'm doing this for me, and i'll be back just not for know
I'm broken not only emotionally but also physically, i lost myself and now i'm going to find myself again.

Bye, love Isabel

2 months later

I heard a knock on the door and i found it weird cause no one knows i live here, i opened the door and it was Zion.

-me: How did you found me?
-Zion: We need to talk and i'm your best friend i know we're you are
-me: Uhhh, okay...

i told him everything, without leaving out a detail.

-Zion: You know he still loves you
-me: He forgot me, he's in love with Maggie
-Zion: To forget you duhh, i missed you
-me: I miss you guys to
-Zion: Come back then
-me: Please let me stay here just 1 week and i promise i'll be back
-Zion: Pinky promise?
-me: Pinky promise, thank you Zion for always being here for me.
-Zion: I'll forever got you

A week passed and i was ready to come back home, i opened the door and saw Austin, Ansley, Zion and my girls.

-me: Y'all too sweet, i'm so sorry i left you guys
-Zion: Don't worry we understand, we we're just worried about you; he hugges me.

I hugged them all, and set my luggage in the room. I was putting everything in the closet t'ill Austin came in. The others we're watching a movie, so i sneaked out.

-Aus: You good?
-me: You know i never lie to you
-Aus: I'm here
-me: It's just...I'll never stop loving Brandon and all those sad things he post on his story and then deletes, it's like he ain't happy with her, but we were drifting apart and i needed to break up, we weren't happy like that and i'd loved to start again with him but just not know, i want to be sure when i do this again, you know
-Aus: Tommorow we have our last tour, be there okay. You don't have to look or talk to him but please be there, he told us to not tell you, but he wrote a song to you 'Gone 2 long' don't search it on Youtube, live is better. And believe me, he stilll loves you, Maggie ain't it!
-me: Thank you Aus and i'll be there, tell them i fell asleep cause i'm tired
-Aus: Okay, goodnight
-me: Night

He hugges me and then leaves...