i don't even know where to start with all this to be honest..i pretty much got this app just to rant and all so i guess i will begin. plus my friends recommended this app so thank you if you are reading this. anyways. i am honestly struggling with school at the moment because of all assessments but it is not just that though, honestly none of my friends have been at school lately so i have been hanging out with random dudes, i know that sounds weird but like i don't want to hang around by myself you know. i did one of my assessments this week because it was due this week and i handed it in a my teacher said to me "oh sorry it's due next week lol" like i stayed up all night and worked my hardest to get that thing done and you are telling me that i had another week. come on man. the teachers at my school are so stupid i swear. i feel sorry for my math teacher because she's having a hella hard time teaching since all the people don't even pay attention. i mean sure yeah math is not that good but you still got to listen. anyways enough about school because that's a bit boring but on to my life. i'm pretty much a moody teen thats in year nine trying to figure out my life and listening to music 24/7.i honestly cant wait for the two weeks of holidays so i can catch up with friends and actually relax at home. believe it or not but music honestly gets me through everything and it probably always will. i don't even know if people or someone will read my rants but it helps my anxiety and other stuff and gets all kinds of things out of my head. i got a new phone the other day and i am so happy about it, i mean i had a good phone but i love getting the latest versions. now on to love. i dont know where it's going. i am liking guys here and there but i don't want to ruin the friendship between me and him. i don't know where to go with it honestly. i liked a guy and he liked me back but he has things going on in his life but now we are kinda just friends idk. i liked another guy but i don't think he dates? or he likes someone else i don't know. sometimes i just need someone to talk to with and all that. i mean i know i'm only 14, nearly 15 but i feel i need someone in my life to support me, i know i have friends that do that but just a guy that thinks i'm important and all that. i had music today as my last class and it was okay i guess, the guy i kinda like hangs with me in music so that's good i guess, look i don't know but i just want a hard down relationship with someone, i know that's like real greedy mush but it's been a while, over a year actually, and i just want a relationship that will last forever, i know that's really cringe but i do in a way, i don't want to date someone and have a thing with someone and just break up and not talk. i guess i just have to wait, i guess this is it for now though. i'm sorry for not typing that much and letting you read that much but i kind of am a bit tired lately.message me if you are reading this by the way, kinda want to see if people are going to read this you know. alright i guess that's it for now, see you guys later
