Empty {sequel to Broken}

Chapter 24: here goes nothing

So this chapter is going to be pretty long (I hope) and have some from all the boys' p.o.v.s for the first time in like forever.

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Zayn's p.o.v.

"Perrie," I said, sitting down next to her on the couch, where she was on her computer, probably emailing her girls about their tour or something.

"Yeah baby," she answered, not even looking up from her laptop.

I shifted in my seat a little bit, not really wanting to do this. I'd been putting the decision off and Perrie's been sort of frustrated with me lately. I mean she understands why, but I know she still wishes I would have decided immediately.

"Pez it's important," I said, sighing.

"What's wrong?" she asked, looking up at me, concerned. She must have heard the urgency in my voice.

"Nothing. But, I've decided," I said nervously.

"Oh, alright," she said, moving the laptop off of her legs and setting it next to her. She turned slightly to face me, so I had her full attention.

"Okay, so first of all," I started.

"No hard feelings, whatever you decide," she said, giving me one of her beautiful smiles. I smiled back and nodded.

"I know," I said, letting out a shaky breath before I told her my final answer. Here goes nothing.

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Liam's p.o.v.

I picked up the phone with a shaky hand and took a deep breath. I'd been putting this off for as long as I possibly could, but the deadline was today.

I slowly dialed each number, one by one by one. Then I pressed the call button, and held the phone up to me ear, attempting to calm my nerves.

"Hello," Jace answered. He was the producer for the record company who wanted to sign me solo.

"Hi, Jace, it's Liam," I said, hoping I didn't sound terrified.

"Liam, how are you?" he asked, probably sensing that I needed some casual conversation before I delivered the verdict.

"As good as I can be, considering, I guess. You?" I asked in return.

"I'm good. Hey, I want you to know that we, everyone here at the office, we feel for you kid," he told me. I had to smile at that.

"Thanks man, I appreciate it," I replied.

"Well, what's it gonna be?" he asked, getting down to business. Here goes nothing.

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Niall's p.o.v.

"I'm sorry if I say I need you, but I don't care I'm not scared of love. Cause when I'm not with you I'm weaker. Is that so wrong? Is it so wrong? That you make me strong," I sang along to my ipod, doing everything I could to keep from having a panic attack.

I was honestly freaking out. I tried calling Harry as soon as I left but it just rang and rang. Zayn's phone was off. Liam's went to voicemail.

I couldn't get a hold of anyone, and I had no idea what was going on. I had a seriously bad feeling that something bad was gonna go down tonight, weather I got there or not.

Okay, deep breaths. The last thing I need is a panic attack, that causes me to crash the car and kill myself or something. I have to get to Harry.

I'd thought a lot about Tess in the hour that I'd already been driving. I feel like there's something about her I don't know. Something important. Like maybe we've already met, somewhere me maybe shouldn't have.

I'll deal with that later though. Right now, I need to concentrate on getting back in time to save Harry. Here goes nothing.

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Harrys p.o.v.

I took a deep breath to keep myself from crying. I need to be strong, just for a few more minutes, and then it will all be over.

"Hey Lou," I whispered, my voice cracking.

I cleared my throat before talking again.

"I've been here, by your side, since the beginning of this thing. I guess you probably aren't really aware of anything," I said, sighing.

"But I miss you baby. I miss feeling your arms around me at night when I can't sleep. I miss your lips on mine, calming me down when I get upset. I miss your voice," I had to stop, choking back a sob.

"I just really fucking miss you," was all I got out before I started sobbing.

"Okay, okay, I'm good," I said out loud, forcing myself to calm down.

"So I wrote you a song," I said quietly, picking up the guitar that was laying on the floor next to me and placing it in my lap.

I don't really play, but I know enough chords to write a simple song.

"I'll try not to cry," I said, before I started.

"You, and I. We're like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky. With you, I'm alive, like all the missing pieces of my heart they finally collide," I sang, playing the chords.

[yes I know this song is not written by Harry, it's called sad song and it's written by We The Kings]

"So stop time right here in the moonlight cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes," I had to stop for a second to calm myself down.

I continued playing the string of chords over and over until I thought I could sing without crying.

"Without you I feel broke, like I'm half of a whole. Without you I've got no hand to hold. Without you I feel torn like a sail in a storm. Without you, I'm just a sad song," I finished with one final strum.

Keeping my eyes on Louis, I reached a shaking hand into my pocket and pulled out a bottle of pills. It doesn't matter what kind they are. Theirs enough of them that it will work.

"I'm sorry Lou, but I couldn't do it. I can't live without you. I love you so much Louis. I love you," I trailed off to a whisper at the end.

I popped the cap on the bottle and dumped them into my hand. Here goes nothing.

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I'm going to go to hell. Oh my god. When Niall tried to commit I didn't fucking describe it!!

Everyone please GO READ BROKEN!! I'll love you forever if you do.