Scared of Happy(Satzu One-Shot)

Scared of Happy

The shot starts in 2019, ends in 2022.

It's been a while since I was lost for words, needles and static and stutters.

Three years ago, Minatozaki Sana's girlfriend-or rather ex-girlfriend, Kim Dahyun- up and left her without a reasonable explanation or even a proper goodbye. Dahyun had a few stressful weeks before deciding to move across the country to 'start over.'

"Dahyun, please think about what you're doing!" Sana pleaded, eyes welled up with tears as the shorter girl threw her clothes into a suitcase.

"I already have," Dahyun replied with tranquility. She was tired of arguing with her girlfriend for hours on end, knowing damn well neither of them were going to change their minds.

"Please, you have to-"

"Sana, please. I can't do this anymore. I love you, but this wasn't how I planned to live my life. I'm sorry."

Dahyun was Sana's first and only love; the one who made her laugh on days where all she wanted to do was bawl her eyes out, who held her close every night during the harshest winters- her soulmate. She carried false hope and waited day after day for her to come back or at least return her calls until it pushed her over the edge. She completely shut down and pushed her loved ones away when they tried comforting her. The girl who used to be all sunshine and smiles was now someone who found it difficult to even climb out the bed without feeling drained. Her whole world was broken, and nobody understood; she was alone.

Just give me one good reason, drop everything and leave it.

Two years ago, her friends reached out to her to check up on how she was doing after months of being in and out of each other's lives. After a few days of seeing the heartbreak still lingering and affecting her life for the worst, they concocted a plan to set her up with someone new.

"Please? Come on, it'll be fun!" Myoui Mina begged, giving her best friend of seven years puppy dog eyes. "What will you have to lose?"

"My dignity," Sana responded with a huff. She loved her best friend, sure- she was always there for her in the worst of times despite Sana cutting her off for the past few months. The guilt she harbored pushed her to believe she 'owed' Mina, but she didn't feel ready to get back in the dating pool just yet- or ever, for that matter. "I just don't think it's a good idea. Maybe the other girl wants something long-term and will be awfully disappointed when she realizes I can't give her that."

"Trust me, I know this girl kinda well and she would understand. Give her a chance, and maybe you guys can stay friends if you choose not to go steady with her! It's a win-win!" Sana could tell Mina truly wanted this, so she thought maybe she could give it a try.

She rolled her eyes before giving in, "Okay, fine."

Mina squealed audibly, embracing the older girl tightly, causing her to wince due to the sudden pressure she had gone so long without. "I'll go set it up for tomorrow night!"

I'm afraid of nothing, I'm afraid of no one.

The next night, Mina dropped Sana off at a local bar for her date. "A bar, Mina, seriously? Dahyun hated bars- she always thought they were too wild and dangerous," She explained to her best friend with a scowl.

"Well, Dahyun's not here anymore and she can't tell you what to do, so go out there and live a little," Mina ordered. "If you want me to pick you up, send me a text. Although, I'm not really expe-"

Sana sighed, mumbling a 'whatever' before stepping out the car and slamming the door. She quickly slipped through the large, drunken mass crowding the entrance before taking a seat on a bar stool, where the bartender asked her if she'd like a drink. "No, thanks- I'm waiting for someone." As she tapped her fingers impatiently on the bar, she darted her eyes back and fourth from the picture of the girl on her phone and towards the gigantic crowd dancing and socializing. Where the hell is she? Part of Sana hoped her date decided to stand her up when she realized she wasn't girlfriend-material to find someone who was. Sana couldn't ditch her, however- she would feel too guilty and would also have to sit through another one of Mina's life-long lectures, so she hoped sitting at a rowdy bar for an hour to talk would at least be enough to satisfy her date.