♡Regrets I've had + apologies + memories

Justin (Memories + regrets + apology)

Justin I'm genuinely sorry.
I take full responsibility for my actions. I'm sorry for being a bad example whenever your an older brother or sister you need to protect your siblings no matter the cost that's what you called family the ones you trust like no other, which I had done the opposite of and I'm aware of that now that we live separate from each other I can't rely on you to help me control my anger you've always had my back even though your younger than me it doesn't feel like that your all grown up not to mention your pretty dang tall I'm surprised your catching up to me haha. Back to the subject I've always wrote a letter to you once a week and whenever you got them you call me up I kinda still remember everything you've said that encouraged me to get back up every time I gave up during practice, whenever I lacked at dancing he'd told me he looked up to me and told me "You can do it!" All I could was look at you I was stunned he was really the only one that gave me attention
" woahh! How'd you do that" "Your going to become very famous soon and I can't believe that your my brother" and he kept jumping around. He seriously is childish at times and I always tease him at times ha
( memory)

We were at the fair~
I wanna ride that! - him
No you can't your to short you need to be a certain height idiot - Me
No. You can get on with me - Him
What no way! Just find something else you've already went on to many and you just ate your gunna get sick to your stomach - Me
*frowns* - Him
Ughh fine hurry up lets be quick alright- Me
We head towards the ride

and I held his hand the hold time we we're laughing and he was screaming my name louder and louder whenever we turned the corner

Whenever we got off he went over to my parents and other siblings meanwhile I stayed back walking behind them

But I still remember whenever we left we stayed up and he sat on my bed watching
Some kid cartoon he fell asleep and all I could do was watch him..

I went over to my aunts yesterday to eat she mentioned my parents and even told stories truth is my parents were insane when they were younger.

This is what I remembered what she told me
Ik it was yesterday but I have bad memory

( Your dad once was upstairs with Alex and fell through the roof and they just pretend that it fell on its own)

(My dad and mom would often get in trouble in the neighborhood)

(My father liked to explore so he was very weird when he was younger whenever we stopped at a puddle he'd jump in it and he didn't mind the mud he was like a mini pig like you)

(My mother and father were high school sweethearts) I find this difficult to believe.

(Your mother and father sat with the same two people everyday at lunch because my mother got pregnant and people didn't accept that they thought she was dirty but the other couple had a kid as well)

The reason why I mentioned this is because I don't wanna bring up the bad memories and cry again I've stopped since 2 days ago and haven't since I wanna keep it that way

Well back to Justin, whenever I did know about my parents divorce I was in different and ignored him and I- hit him sometimes when he barged in my room that's what I regret. Well the fact that he forgave me hurts he wasn't mad at all. It was killing me softly. I'm seeing him on the first of August all i know what imma do is hug him and spend my time with him no matter what I even bought him something for you know
Memories just in case. I bought him a game
And I'm going to give him my extra camera since he also wanted to start a YT channel when I do which is next month when I am.

Well I'll come back to this....
On to the next.