Living in Hell

*Jacob*

The constant shrill of my phone is what woke me up from my peaceful sleep. I rub my eyes cracking them noticing it's still dark outside. Whoever is calling me at this time, better have a good fucking reason.
I pull my phone off the nearly broken charger and tap the green accept circle on my screen. I hold my phone to my ear as I collapse back on my bed closing my eyes not even bothering to pay attention to who it is.

"Hello?" I ask groggily wanting to go back to sleep. I hear a sob from the other end making my eyes shoot open pulling the phone away from my face.

Percy.

My eyes widen, why is he calling me this late or early which ever way you look at it. My stomach twists, thinking of everything that could be wrong.

"Percy, What's wrong?" I ask, scared of his response. My heart pounds so hard I think it's about to burst out of my chest. I hear him taking deep breaths obviously trying to calm down enough to tell me what's going on.

"D-Darcy's gone." He stutters out making my whole body go still. Gone? There are two ways I could take that word. Gone like she ran away and gone like she's....dead. Oh god please let it be the first one please please.

She wouldn't kill herself would she? No definitely not, yeah she's a little depressed but not suicidal. Tears flood my eyes as it feels like I'm being stabbed over and over in my heart. No matter how hard I try to convince myself she's not dead, I know she actually is.

"No." I whisper more to myself than Percy. Please God, please say this isn't true. Tears flow down my cheek steadily, as my hands shake almost causing me to drop my phone.

"Please no." I sob out, my whole body shaking each time I let out a loud sob. I close my eyes trying to take deep breaths.

"She left you a note." Percy tells me quietly.

"Where are you?"

"The hospital." He tells me, his sobs are no longer. Tears probably still flow down his face, though, just like mine are. This felt so unreal, just a day ago Darcy and I were on a date having a blast. She can't be gone, maybe this is just a horrible dream. Please let this be a dream. I need her to be here.

"I'm on my way." I say getting up sliding on my slip on black VANS.

~~~

I run inside to find Darcy's family sitting in the waiting room. Percy is curled up in a red and black plastic chair, tear stains cover his cheeks. Darcy's mom is screaming at Mark. Her voice cracks every other word from the tears that flow heavily down her cheeks.

"You fucking caused this, I hate you!" She screams in Mark's face taking me by surprise. She knew what he was doing to Darcy? She didn't stop it? How could she let him treat her like that?

I feel a tap on my shoulder making me turn away from the scene. My eyes lock with Percy's blood shot, tear filled eyes. A large lump forms in my throat as tears build in my eyes.

Soon we are wrapped into each other's arms bawling our eyes out not caring who sees. Percy's head in buried into my neck as he grabs on to my shirt, tears spilling from both of out eyes rapidly.

We don't say anything for awhile just hold each other and cry. We cry until we have no more tears to shed, until our eyes burn, until we are coughing slightly from not being able to catch our breaths.

"My mom has your note and the things she left you." Percy says shaking slowly pulling away from me. His cheeks are splotchy and red from the tears. I nod not trusting my voice.

This all just seems so unreal, were there signs that I missed? Could I have stopped this? She seemed as if she was getting better, she was eating and smiling more. Were those fake smiles she gave me? I have so many questions but no one can answer them.

"My little girl is gone and it's your fault! How could you do this?!" Darcy's mom's yells pull my out of my trace. I have never seen anyone so angry before, I can literally feel the anger radiating off of her. I'm actually surprised it isn't Percy who is yelling.

Percy sits down in the plastic chair that he previously was sitting in and pulls his legs to his chest burying his face in his knees. I sit in the chair next to him just staring at the wall across the waiting room.

~~~

Around five in the morning I finally arrive back at home.finding my mom was already up. Great! I don't feel like talking to anyone and she'll probably yell at me for thinking I snuck out. I walk quickly past the kitchen hoping my mom doesn't hear but I go unsuccessful.

"Jacob get your ass back here." I hear her voice say in a crisp tone making me sigh. I just want to go to bed and cry then sleep a little. I walk back to the kitchen balancing everything Darcy left me. I have yet to read her letter, I'm too scared to.

"Yes mom?" I ask leaning against the door-frame completely exhausted. How am I going to tell her that Darcy commited? She'll try to comfront me and I just want to be away from everyone right now and mourn by myself.

"Where have you- have you been crying?"

"Uh yeah I have been." I mumble hoping she won't make me talk about what happened. I will tell her when I wake up.

"What happened?" 

"I don't want to talk about it right now, I just want to sleep." I say and jog upstairs before she can say anything. As soon as i am in my room, I lock the door then place all the CD's on my desk. I look through them debating on which one to listen to. I finially choose a mix-tape that has no name on it. 

After putting it in and pressing play I strip down to my boxers laying down in my bed closing my eyes. I close them only to open them a couple second later hearing an all to familair voice. Darcy's voice.

"Hi, i'm making this CD of my favorite songs-"

"Why are you recording this? Aren't you making this for you?"  Percy's voice jumps in as tears build in my eyes.

"Well, yes but if someone else listens they'll want to know what's on this." Her beautiful voice rings through my stereo making tears slide down my cheeks slowly. I can just see her sitting there with her laptop in her lap, her black hair in a pony tail to keep it out of her face, and an adroable irritated look on her face as Percy lays next to her in her bed.

"Whatever dork." He teases then there is noise like a pillow hitting him or something then it goes to music. I close my eyes as the music flows through the room. I hug my pillow close to my chest as I drift off to sleep.

A/N

I'm probably going to finish this book in two or three more chapters. 

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