To Reach

My Dear Infatuation

So used to being left out, so used to suppressing my feelings

That I still wonder when I started to hate being alone, without you near me

How many times have I told you I love you

I guess as many times as your actions said you don't

Waited for you, with memories, hopes, and love,

I guess it made life feel like waiting for the things bound not to happen

But oh boy did my feeling digress

Hanging on by the thread of hope that your smiles give

I try to pick my pieces up that your ignorance broke but end up getting cut instead

My dear infatuation you gave me up

My dear infatuation you never really cared

My dear infatuation you always had someone else

My dear infatuation you could never see

You left me stranded, forgotten and abandoned

You lost the moon, counting the stars

And even though you were never mine

I cannot burn my little paradise

But there's nothing worth fighting left for me now

Can't break through to reach you

And that's breaking me

So go ahead and erase what was never there

My little place

Inside your heart

Although I'll still love you in a way

I guess.