𝐢 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐩 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟

BONUS CHAPTER

"Steve! Hi." He said when he heard him pick up. "Icarus.. Hey." Icarus smiled and just stared at the wall for a moment. "Do you wanna catch up? You can come to my apartment.." He says.

Steve did agree to it, and Icarus quickly told him the address before kicking out Leo for the evening. He ran around the apartment then, picking up garbage and tidying any and everything up.

When he heard the buzzer go off, he rushed over right away and fixed his hair. He presses the button, "Steve?" He says into it. "Yeah, it's me." Steve says in response and he smiled right away before pressing the button to let him into the building. He waits for Steve by pacing again, back and forth.

When he knocked, Icarus took a moment and took a deep breath in before opening the door. "Hi." He said and Steve smiled. "Hi.." He says.

The two start catching up and it felt just like old times as they drank wine, sitting on the livingroom couch. "So.. you got a roommate?" Steve asked as he looks around the apartment and Icarus nods right away. "Looking for a house though, Leo's becoming a real slob and.. God, he acts like a kid." He says and Steve just chuckles, looking at him.

"Leo.. just a friend?" He asked, almost awkwardly and Icarus nods, pouring more wine into his glass. "Leo's younger than me, he's twenty-four and it'd feel kind of weird, it's the same the age gap I had with the kids back in Hawkins.." Icarus chuckles.

Then everything came back to him. The Fall of 1983 and 1984. And summer '85. He looks at Steve, staring at him for a moment. "How's Dustin? You two still in contact?" He asked and Steve nodded. "He and the others are still in college." He says with a smile and Icarus smiles too.

"El?" He says and Steve shrugs. "She went to the same one as Max.." He says, looking at Icarus. "Cool.." Icarus smiled as he looks away, thinking more about those times when they were younger. "I can't believe you made that bat and let me think it was mine that year later." Steve chuckled.

Icarus looks at him, "can we not talk about it?" He asked as he sets his glass of wine down. "Why not? I-I mean, we were.. together those years.." Steve said and Icarus stayed quiet, staring at the floor. "Yeah.. those were great times, with you.. but.. Not the other times.." He says as he shakes his head, his face sort of distorting into discomfort.

"Then don't think about the other times.." Steve said as he reached out and grabbed Icarus' hand. "Think about the other times, the great times.. Don't you remember the fun times with Dustin? Nancy? Jonathan? Chris? Robin?" He said and Icarus just starts smiling, looking up at him.

"You're right.." He whispered, looking down. He noticed their hands, they were still holding hands. He puts his other hand on top of Steve's, staring at their hands like that. He missed Steve.

"I miss it.. in a way." He whispered and then sighed, looking back up again. "I missed you.." He suddenly says and Steve smiles, staring at him. He leans in, kind of hesitating for a moment. Icarus pursed his lips but then leaned in as well.

Icarus closed his eyes, Steve doing the same right away as they both start leaning closer to each other. Steve sighed then closed the space between them by pressing his lips to Icarus'. Icarus can taste the wine from Steve's lips and can only guess his tasted the same as their kiss then deepened, his hands reaching up and cupping Steve's face gently.

Icarus moves on the couch, facing Steve completely as his arms wrap around Steve's shoulders and Steve's hands go to his lower back. He pulls away, breathing heavily before looking into Steve's eyes. "I really, really missed you.." He whispers.

"I missed you too.." Steve said, his hands trailing up Icarus' back then he leaned in again, kissing Icarus. Their kiss deepens again, Icarus moving to lay on his back as Steve got on top of him, holding himself up with one hand holding Icarus' face gently.

Icarus pulls away, staring up at Steve, "let's go to my room.." He whispers and Steve nodded right away. "Yeah.. yeah.." He says, getting up. Icarus got up as well, giving one more kiss to Steve before grabbing his hand and leading him to his room.

The next morning, Icarus woke up and the first thing he saw was Steve right there, asleep by him. He smiled and leaned over, kissing Steve's shoulder. The memories of 1984 flash in his mind.

He remembered the night they first spent together so clearly and what he did the next morning, leaving. He looked away, frowning and then he slowly sat up, putting on a new pair of boxers. But it wasn't gonna be the same as that morning.

He laid back into bed and took out his reading glasses, reading the book he was last reading. He laid there, reading for probably an hour until Steve started to hum in his sleep, starting to wake up. Icarus closes his book, setting it to the side.

He also takes off his reading glasses, "hmm, I saw that, dork.." Steve mumbled and Icarus chuckles, looking at Steve who opened his eyes slowly. "Goodmorning.." Icarus says.

"Goodmorning." Steve says, slowly sitting up and rubbing his eyes. "Last night.. was nice." He says as he started blushing and smiling. Icarus looks away, smiling as well. "Yeah.. it was." He says and Steve looks at him. "And a surprise is you're still here." He teased and Icarus rolls his eyes.

"Do you have work today?" Steve asked as he looks at him and Icarus shakes his head, holding out his hand. "I'm all yours if you want.." He said and Steve smiles. "Always.." He says as he rubs the back of Icarus' hand with his thumb.

Steve and Icarus spent the day together, mostly in Icarus' apartment. "So.. you've never said why you're here." Icarus said as they ate their breakfast across from one another at the table.

"I got a job in Manhattan." Steve says, biting his bottom lip and Icarus smiles right away. "Oh.." He says and Steve smiles as well. "Yeah.. Nice, good paying job.. and it's near here, I was glad it was and that I got offered the job. I figured that you would still be here, living the big city live with some successful job, and was I wrong?" He says.

Icarus shrugs, smiling softly.

That day was just the beginning. Steve and Icarus continued to see each other the next six months, eventually they made it official and when they did, Icarus was moving into a new apartment, an official one that was in walking distance to his office and was actually near Steve's workplace too.

He asked Steve to move in with him after a year since they met again. And then two years after that, Steve asked Icarus to be his husband. Icarus said yes. And then two years after that, they took the next step into their relationship. Adopting.

It was 2000 when they adopted their first child, a baby girl named Zoey. Then in 2004, they adopted another kid, another baby. A boy this time and his name was Jude. They were public now, got a lot of mean looks and get bashed on a lot, but they didn't care. They loved each other so much that everything else was just blocked out.

It was just them, the Blood-Harringtons.

  

  

  

  

   

   

     

authors note Wow.. the actual end. I told myself I wouldn't cry. 😌😌