confused teenager

Sat. July 13

Summer is pretty boring this year. I at least get three hours of sleep. I don't feel like getting ready and going out. I live close to liquid stores, a mcdonalds, in&out, and some other fast food place. I just skate my way over there. Austin is busy being a hoe this summer >:( what happened to the saying "bros before hoes"? Hm, Austin? What happened?

Anywayssss. I painted my nails black, I kinda like it. It's 01:18. The streets are empty. Fun facts: Im talking into my phone with a voice recording app cause I don't wanna forget the stupid shit I'm thinking off at this moment. I just realized that Kaneki from Tokoy Ghoul is the OG eboy. Cause like his hair, the clothes, the mask, the nails, he's sleep deprived and if he wasn't a ghoul, he could've been a druggie. Or he can still be one when he's a ghoul?? I mean he's half-half soooo. this is confusing me.

Im currently sitting on a bench in my old middle school, looking up at the night sky. I see three girls from school on the other side of the field, they keep flashing their flash lights at me. That's rude. They probably think I'm a creep since I am talking to myself, it's sad. Uhm. I think sneaking out late at night is a normal thing for me now. Austin has gotten me addicted to Red Bull. I haven't slept in two day and I don't know how I feel about that.

           I am now walking home. I'm listening to Hell Boy - Lil Peep. Why do girls like hands? Is it because they can grab things? If so, could that be the same reason why people like feet? Cause you can grab things with your feet as well. Anywayssss. I want neck kisses and bed cuddles :/ is that too much to ask? I mean. I miss being in a relationship but I don't trust people and I hate feelings. I'm standing in front of my bedroom door now so I guess this is it for now. Good night. Hopefully I can sleep. I yeet away