Have you suddenly thought of the reason why you were doing or feeling things that way?
I did. I just did. Just now. While waiting for the traffic light, in those fleeting moments, I suddenly realized the reason I liked him or one of the reasons to be exact.
He liked to write his thoughts in his notes on his phone. And I really liked it. I admired him. He was so loud and confident in his thoughts and emotions and he wanted to embrace them all. He wanted to remember all of them. Because those emotions and thoughts mattered. Because he knew he was entitled to all those thoughts and feelings.
I remembered one day, I saw he was sitting on a sofa in a party. The light there was dimmed and it illuminated his face with a shade of red. I ploughed next to him and perched my chin on his shoulder.
'What are you doing?' I asked softly.
He smiled, a proud one and turned over his phone to a slight degree to the left so I could see too.
Sleep whenever I like
I could leave in the middle of the night
But I'd miss it
Don't miss it
Don't miss it like I did
My mind went blank. I could never understand him and his fleeting thoughts. And I guess that was why I fell into him more. He was random but he was always opened to me. He let me enter his space of thoughts.
Oh, and how I realized how beautiful his dimension was.
I guess I missed it. Like he did.
YOU ARE READING
If only
Short StoryWhenever I think of you, I write. Hoping that you might read it somehow or that eventually this feeling will go away. These are all the things I think of you and words that I cant say out loud.
