As I lay and the clock strikes three
i ask myself
is this who i'm destined to be? is this it? is this the life for me?
My mind starts to wander and my heart feels heavy and i ask myself
will i ever feel free? will this end or will it get the best of me?
My head starts to pound and my heart feels heavier, so I smoke to rest my soul, hoping to find some relief
You see I view myself as a coward
i'm a coward and I'm fake
I can only hurt myself by feeling my lungs blackening with each breath I take
I pretend and pretend to be what i'm not because I don't know what i'm supposed to be
But right now as thoughts of what could've been and how I could be take over my mind
I start to feel
start to feel the water coarse through my body. I struggle and struggle to breathe but fail miserably.
I crave to leave but that's not option, no no not for me
I let it be, let it engulf my whole, my soul and body.
