I'm very sure about a lot of things, but at the same time very unsure, I believe in myself most of the time and am truly positive, but I also kill myself and somehow I always resurrect myself and then return to my usual self, I look back on my past and I see everyone that has helped me to be here, they are why I am who I am, they are why I have such high hopes for this world, I'm just a boy who has a happy go lucky personality with a dark past that haunts him. It wasn't always like that, it never used to haunt me, the only reason it haunts me now is because of something I did, it is not someone's fault, the fault is mine, and mine to make it right, I'll get my chance to redeem myself but I don't know to be honest, not everyone gets that chance and still I tell myself that I will be able to redeem myself one day. I have conflicted feelings when I'm alone so I panic when I'm afraid or paranoid, that's another thing I hate, being alone, loneliness is the worst pain I feel and it eats at me, but I get by it, eventually I'll get the better of it.
My parents argue a lot, and I'm afraid that I'll inherit the worst sides of them and I do not want that, they say you have to go one way or the other? Well screw that, I'll make my own third way, a way where I'll be who I want to be, a way where I will determine my own life and future and nobody not even life itself will get a say in it, with the exception of those I care about of course. I'm a naive person and I like to keep peace if I can, naiveness is looked down generally but I think the world needs more of that, after all if there was conflict a child would say"just be nice to each other and don't do it again" wouldn't that actually work? You're probably thinking, what is this idiot babbling about? Or, man this dude is kinda strange. Simply put I'm just a dumb boy that runs on hope along with some of the fumes of life.
