Is there a possibility that someone out there is on my side?
Is there someone out there who will stand up for me?
Am I all alone?
Is there anyone willing to help?
Why does it feel like I'm targeted by the ones I hold close to my heart?
I've tried to keep it in but I'm losing control.
I can't hold on to my voice any longer.
I'm snapping and I'm losing it.
I'm becoming hate filled.
I'm losing my friends because of all this.
Why can't I be like everyone else?
Why can't I fit in?
Why does it feel like I'm the only one suffering?
Why can't I drag others down?
Am I not cruel enough?
Why am I being punished like this?
I've said my opinion.
Everyone agreed with me.
Someone heard and now I'm the bad guy.
I'm always hurting people.
I'm always making them hate me.
I'm unlike able.
They were right.
I'll never have friends.
I'll always be alone.
Maybe I should hurt myself.
Maybe then I'll stop hurting others.
No one will read this.
Who cares anyways?
Im useless.
I'm nothing.
Maybe a few people would miss me if I left.
A whole lot of people would cheer if I was gone.
I don't get it anymore!
I hurt three people I know.
Others were defending them.
But what happens when others hurt me?
Where's my defense?
Where are my "friends" protecting me?!
Am I just being played?!
Am I just a toy for your enjoyment?!!
AM I NOT EVEN A HUMAN BEING WITH FEELINGS TO YOU ANYMORE??!!!!!
I'm trying.
But when someone thinks they can just play with me, I just give up.
Why try when the one person you trusted entirely says they hate you?
I hate you!
I hate you all!
Where's my help?!
Where's my friends that said they'd be there??!!!
WHERES THE PEOPLE WHO SAID THEYD CARE?!!!
WHERES THE PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY REALIZE THAT IM NOT INVINCIBLE?!!
THAT I AM HUMAN AND I GET HURT TOO??!!!
where's the ones I trusted with everything?
Do they even exist?
Have they ever existed?
No. They haven't.
You're all fake!
I hate you all!
You never cared!
You never liked me!
You only used me!!
you only talked to me out of curtesy.
Maybe if I went through with everything you'd all realize just how much you've hurt me.
How much you've wrecked my life.
Maybe then you'd realize the damage you've all done.
