OC writings

Late night routines

Kay was thinking about all the recent events that surrounded himself and Smile- his demon. 
Smile was clearly losing it, randomly leaving in the middle of the night with nothing but his weapon and hoodie. He would come home around sunrise, wiping his weapon clean and uncontrollably scratching his arms- tearing through small layers of the skin. 
This is more than Smile's regular mental breakdown- clearly Smile has no sense of control over his own actions which leads to Kay worry more about whether Smile is hiding something or something really bad is happening his demon's head. 
Kay really wants to understand what the hell is happening with Smile and help his demon get over whatever is happening with him- "this is insanity" he says.

Kay has this sentence repeating inside his head over and over as he is pacing back and fourth in his bedroom- unable to fall asleep or calm down. 
Eventually Kay wakes up to the front door downstairs unlocking and steps walking inside, trying to make no noise. 
Kay rushes downstairs and sees his demon- Smile, doing his usual routine, facing his back towards Kay and wiping his blade clean with a cloth he picked up on the entrance. 
Something catches Kay's eye this time- this isn't like usual. 
Smile has a big black plastic bag lying near him. 
"You have some explaining to do" Kay says as he walks towards the small kitchen close to the small hallway Smile is standing in. 
Smile makes no noise but stops wiping his blade clean and drops the cloth on the floor- clearly covered in blood. 
"Where the hell have you been? what is all this?" Kay asks, trying to keep his cool by grabbing a glass of water from the counter, eyes still trying to adjust to the sudden light appearing from the big glass windows in the living room. 
"Went on a walk, that's all. You should go back to bed- it's still too early for you to wake up" Smile answers, still having his back facing Kay. Not even turning around to talk face to face.
Kay notices his uncomfortable standing, his shoulders tense- clearly not comfortable with the fact he got caught. 
"Smile, you know I won't leave you alone standing like that in front of our front door with a huge questionable plastic bag lying against the wall" Kay took a moment to process his words and catches Smile's glance over the bag- this is so not okay.  Smile sighs but still doesn't turn to face Kay, Kay places his now empty glass on the counter and starts to walk slowly towards the tense demon. "Smile, you know you can talk to me right?" Kay says as he slowly approaches behind Smile, about to place his hand on the demon's back but feels the immediate rejection from the demon's body. Kay moves his hand to rub his temples, stressed over not knowing what to do or what to say. 
Kay sighs and as he is about to turn around Smile takes a quick inhale- as if in pain. Kay turns around to see Smile catch his balance by placing his hand in front of him against the door, Kay at this point doesn't care what reaction he will get from the demon and rushes to catch his body before he collapses. 
"DON'T!" Smile screams- Kay looks behind him to make sure the door to his and Aria's bedroom is closed, "please don't make so much noise, you don't want Aria to see you in that state now, do you?" Kay speaks and he tries to help Smile walk over to the couch in the living room so he will be able to lie down and rest, his side clearly wounded from the dark patch of blood over his hoodie.
"Can you please explain what the hell is wrong with you? you've been having this episodes of randomly leaving the house in the middle of the night and coming back in the morning with blood all over your cloths and a bloody blade in your hand, what the hell are you doing?!" Kay silently shouts at him- making sure to keep his tone down so Aria won't wake up. 
Smile looks away uncomfortably- clearly not having a planned explanation to what the hell is happening with him lately.  "You're worrying me sick dude! You haven't been like ever since we got out of the hell we've been locked in for 15 years!" Kay adds, frustrated with the demon.
Kay gets up and walks over to the cabinet in the bathroom, grabbing first aid kit and  rubbing alcohol- "you better fucking talk Smile" he says as he places all the stuff down the coffee table near Smile. 
Smile finally looks at Kay and gulps at the worried and mad expression written all over Kay's face. To be honest with himself, Smile himself has no idea what has gotten over him- "I just.. started getting uncontrollable urges to.. 'feed'" Smile mutters quietly, hoping that Kay hasn't picked on that. "What do you mean?" Kay asks as he proceeds to sanitize Smile's wound. 
"I don't exactly know, I've just been feeling like something is missing and nothing- and I mean nothing helped me satisfy the need of whatever is missing. Until one night, I went out and I saw an asshole trying to force himself on a woman so I started beating him.. then the next thing I know I 'feed' off of him and I am back home" Smile speaks slowly, hissing in the middle whenever the alcohol soaked cotton touches his scrapped skin. Kay stops for a second and looks at Smile "is it time for you to finally see him? have a talk with 'death'?" Kay looks at him concerned- this is one of the things Kay didn't want to happen, no meeting with death is a good meeting. He knows from experience.
"I honestly don't know, Kay- I feel like something inside of me is taking the little bits of whatever I have left of myself and tearing it to shreds, replacing it with anger and hunger for.. violence" Smile looks at Kay with pure fear of not knowing what to do with himself, he sometimes feels like all he should do is take himself and go live in the forest, far away from civilization. 
Kay puts his hand on Smile's neck and sees the glowing symbols appearing all over his body- Kay has the ability to shut Smile down if he truly desires to but he won't give up on his demon that easily. "If you have to go and meet him to understand how to help yourself- I am willing to help you" Kay says putting his hand away and the glowing symbols disappear from Smile's skin. 
"What else can I do...?" Smile says with an exhausted voice.

"Oh, by the way, what the hell is in the bag? or rather, who the hell is in the bag?" Kay says as he gets up to go put all the bandages and first aid stuff back in the cabinet. 
"It's that douche that I told you about- I didn't know what to do with him... so I brought him with me apparently" Smile answers rubbing his head trying to understand why the hell did he really drag a dead body all the way back to his house. 
"I guess I will go get.. rid of it while you rest here, and here- change your clothes" Kay says as he throws a pair of fresh comfortable clothes to Smile and walks over to the entrance hallway, grabbing the bag and walking outside, closing the door behind himself. 
Smile reaching his hand over his eyes and takes a deep breath in- I have to do something with myself.  

Fast.