i'm trying so hard
to not let you love me
because i know that i'll hurt you
i'm trying so hard
to show you that i'm not worth it
in the hopes that you'll turn away
i'm trying so hard
to give you an easy way out
but you don't want that
you're trying so hard
to make me love myself
because you can't watch me hurt myself
you're trying so hard
to show me that i'm worth it
and you hate that i can't see it
you're trying so hard
to understand
but i don't know how to tell you
that i'm trying so hard
to not let myself love you
because i don't want to get hurt
and i'm trying so hard
to tell you that i'm not worth it
so it won't hurt so bad when you eventually say it
i'm trying so hard
to find an easy way out
but you won't let me
i'm trying so hard
to accept that even if i found a way out
i wouldn't go.
i'm trying so hard.
