Burger Brains

I Can Never say

You push love away,

                                    Everyone that has been let in has massacred my heart,

and hide in solitary places,

                                    the dark is the only thing that hides my pain.

but still venture out to spy,

                                     I want to see if it is safe to let my heart pump again,

and just as you open up,

                                      every bleating memory of everyone I have lost,

every sound outside

confirms that only I can save myself, from death.

echoes in your being,

Closing inside myself is the only way to save my blood,

and kills you again.

no one must know this pain. I mustn't share my desolation.

You walk in the open.

Looking out on every person passing by, glass between us.

How can they know

I'm wanting to get free, but I can't help myself.

you need a pull

To get out of this empty glass prison I built myself . . .

to get finally free.

but to speak it, would engulf my life again.

Don't say it aloud,

This cage is the only thing that shares my pain and protects me.

It'll mean your life,

If I open it up myself, it'll mean my very existence,

if you say,

"I'm alone."