Pain Behind That Smile

how life has been

    I just wanna tell my story, let me start about my parents. My parents got divorced when I was one years old so I didn't had the chance to grow up looking at my mom and dad happy and that stuff. The reason behind their divorce is one thing that I don't know till this day but I never heard good things about dad, I heard he's hurt her. So the one night my mom didn't say speak a word to anyone, she just got up, packed her stuff and left...well she took me with her too. I always asked why she left and she always said the same thing "I'll tell you when you get older." I remember when I was seven years old she had breast cancer so she had to leave to Thailand for her surgery and stuff. But it all passed and when I was getting older we started getting real close but there was this thing that always confused me about her, she used to say "make sure you stay strong even if I'm gone" well I didn't actually understand until she passed away. We were really close. When I say really close I mean really really close. We used to go shopping together, eat junk foods together, go to the gym together, watch movies together, everything together but then this horrible day came by, I remember the day was Friday. I woke up in the morning cause I was about to go to school, I got dressed , I kissed her cheeks while she was sleeping and I told her I love her and I left then when I came back she was gone, my mom was dead. Her sisters, brothers, everyone was crying except me. I was there standing confused. Cause I never thought she will this early, she was young, she was 37, very young to die. My mom, my friend, my everything was gone. I felt like half of me was gone.