Royalty Fixed Marriage |Wyorck Series #2|

PROLOGUE

Surprises are beautiful. Surprises are exciting. Surprises could be so hurtful, too. Magical, happy, and shocking. But I never knew, a surprise could change my life.

I am Alexis Dion Zaraga, and I always feel alone. And it all started when my mother died. Nasundan pa ng pagpapakasal ni dad kay Lia. Nasanay ako na ako ang center of attraction. Nasanay ako na saakin lang ang atensyon ng mga mahal ko sa buhay. I was a spoiled daughter. Pero dati lang lahat ng 'yon. Because when Lia come into our life, everything was fcked up.

Dinama ko ang lamig ng hangin dito sa tabi ng balon. Ang sarap sa feeling na mag-isa ka. You can free all your thoughts and entertain them. You can do whatever you want.

Dati, ayaw kong mag isa ako. It's either, meron si mother or si father sa tabi ko. Because way back when I was still open, I defined happiness as 'together'. But now that I am closed, I define it 'alone'.

Pumikit ako. Tears dripped down my cheeks. Ganito ako, iyakin. I'd never felt strong. Dahil nasanay akong naka rely sa mga parents ko. Nasanay akong... masaya. May kasama.

"M-mom, please come back to me. I-I'm tired of all these shits. I need you,"

Kung nandito si mom sa tabi ko, hinding hindi siya papayag sa gusto ni Lia. Hinding hindi niya ako hahayaang mapasok sa ganitong problema. She will never let me suffer. She will never force me to do something I don't like. She will always be behind me, supporting me in every things I want as long as I am happy.

Nanirahan ako dito sa ibang bansa para takasan lahat ng problema roon. I know, this is just a temporary freedom. Because I know, I have to fix all of the knots in my life. Because I know... Mom wants me to obey my father... Always. And before she died, I  promised her that I would do everything she wanted me to do. Lahat lahat.

Even if it's hard, you'll still do everything because you love. Hangga't nagmamahal ka, gagawin mo lahat.

Maybe freedom and genuine happiness are really not meant for me? Kasi pagkatapos ng ilang araw, hindi na akin ang buhay ko. Not literally, pero may mag mamay-ari na saakin. I was fixed into a marriage. Ayaw ko, pero anong magagawa ko? Wala. I was born to obey. We were.

My phone rang and it's a sign that my freedom is about to end. Nakakalungkot pero kailangang tanggapin.

"Anak, I've been calling Ysa. I don't wanna disturb you so I didn't call you earlier. Where are you? Alam kong mag-isa ka nanaman--alone time.  Malapit na ang flight mo,"

I know, dad. That's why I'm here. To treasure every seconds I have until it overs.

Tumango ako kahit hindi niya naman ako nakikita. Dad knows me well. Alam niyang hindi ko na kayang ibalik ang dati. No, kaya ko. I just can't do it alone. Kailangan ko ng kooperasyon niya. Fighting is hard if you're alone.

"Anak, I'm sorry we have to do this. You have to do this. Your mother thinks---"

I ended the call even if he's not yet done talking. I am tired hearing his excuses. It's all the same and lies. He always uses mother because he knows i'll always obey. Nakakasawa na. Kung hindi dahil kay mom hindi ko na alam.

Kumuha ako ng tatlong coins sa bulsa ko at huminga ng malalim. I know this is just a tale, but why not give it a try? There's always no wrong in trying.

"I want my happiness back," I threw the coin on the water well. This is so infantile.

I miss myself. I miss the way I laugh. The way I smile and the way I enjoy life. I miss the real me.

"I want my freedom back," napaluha na ako. I really want my freedom back. Iyong kung saan ako masaya, iyon ang masusunod. Wherein I can do anything I want to. Alam kong hindi iyan ang tunay na depinisyon ng freedom, but that's my own.

"I want to be loved.. I want to be the priority. I want to be the only one... Again."

Even it's so vague, particularly in my sistuation right now.

Natawa nalang ako sa huli habang umiiyak. I'm so hopeless. Nakakabaliw pala itong sitwasyon ko. Kung ano ano nalang ba talaga ang gagawin ko?

I feel so down, hurt, alone and kinda depressed the moment the plane flew. Damn, I want the plane to crush down!

"Sir, narito na si Miss, Alexis!"

They call me Alexia sa bahay. Dahil si mother lang ang pwedeng tumawag saakin ng Adi. Siya lang. Not even dad.

Hinawi ko ang buhok ko at pumasok sa bahay. Nakangiti si father nang makita ako. I wonder why is he always happy? Bakit ang dali para sa kaniya? Bakit saakin ang hirap?

He kissed my cheek. Tipid akong ngumiti at naglakad na palayo sa kanila. I can't take to see Lia, the reason why everything changed so bad.

I can't be happy for them. I don't want to see her. I always remember why my life suddenly turned miserably.

Pumunta ako sa mini bar namin. Kumuha ako ng wine roon at nilagyan ang baso ko bago naupo sa high stool. Hindi ko matanggap. Fuck.

"Anak, yung wedding gown mo na sa itaas ng kwarto mo!" magiliw na sabi ni dad. I just nodded. Naramdaman ko siyang lumapit. He kissed my forehead so tender.

Alam niya kung paano kami mababalik sa dati. Hindi niya lang kayang tanggapin. Gawin.

"I'm sorry,"

Anong magagawa ng sorry? Does it change anything? Feelings? Yeah, minsan napapagaan niya ang pakiramdam ng isang tao. Pero sa akin, everytime he says sorry, mas lalo  ko siyang kinasusuklaman. Kasi siya yung tao na kahit humingi ng sorry, walang nangyayari. He doesn't do actions. He always sticks with his mouth.

Ininom ko ang wine bago umalis doon. Nadaanan ko si Lia na ngumiti saakin. I hate her genuineness. I hate her.

Tumaas na ako sa kwarto ko. Pero bago ang kwarto ko, nakita ko ang kwarto ni mommy. Simula noon, hindi ko na iyan binuksan. Because I know, it would only break me so bad. Gustong gusto kong buksan pero prinoprotektahan ko lang din ang sarili ko. Sometimes, some people wants to break the wall even if it means breaking them, too. Because they think they are brave enough. O kaya naman, handa silang mabasag.

Pumasok ako sa kwarto ko. And the reality hits me. I heaved a deep sigh and walked towards it. Sa gitna ng kwarto ko ay ang isang napakagarang wedding gown. My dream wedding gown. Ito yung gown na sabay naming drinawing ni mom. Pero hindi ito yung wedding na ginusto ko.

I want to be married to someone I love. But in my case, not everything I want would be granted. Hindi na ako kagaya ng dati. Na ako ang nasusunod.

Bukas ay ikakasal ako sa taong hindi ko kilala. I've never seen him. I've never heard his voice and I've never wished for him to invade my life.

Matapos hawiin iyon ay tinapon ko ang sarili ko sa kama ko. I love the coldness of my room. Nakakarelax.

I want to rest and enjoy being alone. Because tomorrow, I will be marrying one of the Wyorcks, the kings and princes of the kingdoms. The powerful one. The new owner of Alexis Dion Zaraga. 

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Irms♡