Broken but not defeated

I want it to end

(Naru's pov)
I am Naruto Namikaze Uzamki and i just turned 16 but i have some dark secrets I am actually a she, I am the host of the nine tailed for(kurama) and I am in love with my sensei Kakashi hatake

                  (Later in the konoha)

"Please stop" was all I could beg as my attackers beat me half to death yelling things like demon and monster and murderer, finally they left me lying on the street bleeding from me wounds *kitsune are you alright* kurama asked me in our mindscape with worry in his voice "I'm fine" I  muttered crying as I  ran home, as I  got home home i looked in the fridge and had to run to the bathroom to vomit blood *YOUR NOT FINE* kurama roared in my mind "YES I AM NO LEAVE ME ALONE YOU STUPID OLD FOX" i yelled at him causing him to shrink away in fear(I have never been afraid of a human before this girl but even so I love her like my daughter.) I  walked to her room and looked in the mirror letting the jutsu go and revealing my well developed body and thinking to myself that I was glad I decided to hide the fact that im a girl' and letting my blonde hair that hit right about to the middle of my back then i looked at the dyed blue tips i had done and smiled (at least I can do one thing right and that's just got to be keeping myself hidden) she thought to herself.

         (Time skip to later that night)

I was saddened by looking at her picture of my sensei shirtless and without his mask because i knew he'd never love a demon like me *your right who could ever love you your a murderer, then i looked down and counted to myself how many had been there earlier
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And five that just whatched and laughed so i grabbed my kunai and drug it across my arms leaving 15 fresh marks adding to the almost full artwork of cuts on my body, i stared to think and found my thoughts trailing off to kashi and falling asleep dreaming about him.                         (Dream sequence smut and rape warning)

Kakashi smiled as he pulled his mask down and slowly kissed my neck looking for my sweet spot and when he found it let out let out moan of pure pleasure "k-kashi sensei right t-there" then he disappeared leaving him in front of me *itachi Uchiha she hissed* as he ripped me pants off and rubbed his member on my entrence and proceeded to violate me until he was satisfied and left me crying into the night alone in an alley.
              (End Dream sequence)
I woke up in a cold sweat screaming then looked around realizing i was in my bed, i pull my knees to my chest and cryed until i couldnt anymore then i went to get a scroll to right my last words on

To whoever's care to read this

You all did it you finally broke me

This world is full of so much pain

I'm leaving forever

And finally I can go to sleep and be peacfull

I set the note next to a picture of my parents and slowly drug my kunai across my wrist feeling my life slip away *I'm sorry kashi I love you* were my last thoughts

(Kakashi's pov)
I woke up instantly feeling something wrong then I thought to myself *good I can sense everyone's chakra except for...* I trailed off and start to cry as I feel naruko's presence leaving then without a second thought I leap out of my window across rooftops.

Well guys that's chapter one and wow 632 words but I hope you guys enjoy reading this as much as I enjoy writing it