To my cousins

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Hey
I just wanted to know
Are you ok
I am so sorry
Sorry for what you have been through
Sorry for everyone who has literally walked out
Of your lives
Sorry for all the pain you have felt
Sorry for not being able to fix it
Sorry for not being by your side
Sorry for everything
I know the pain
All too well
And how it leaves you broken
Like your heart has been through the wringer
And it is just forever a mangled mess
Mashed up and beaten down
Twisted into a distorted shape
Just feeling so dead
Putting on a fake smile
Laughing even though it hurts
The pain sits deep in the pit of my stomach
Like a shard of glass
Pushing deeper into my heart
Ripping a hole right through it
Tears don't even come out anymore
Like I dried and used them all up
All I want is for you to feel better
I worry about you everyday
The pain is even worse for you
And I know I cannot quite understand
What it feels like
But we all hurt just the same
I just want you to know I am here for you
So just stay strong and carry on

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