Glitter overload

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(Alec pov)

When will the day come?

When will that moment pass by?

When will I feel safe?

When will I be at home?

When can I fell that warm embrace that I've been waiting for so long?

When can I finally be loved?

When can I be happy?

When?

I'm waiting...

I don't want to shake up my world all again. This will be the seventeenth time my family's moved. Over and over the same thing. My mother tells me that we'll stay here for at least a year. I'm not going to change. My sister, Izzy fits in anywhere she goes, always being the angel of the school. While my brother, Jace is always one of the jocks. And then there's me..... I'm always hiding in the corner of the classroom, trying to have nobody notice me.

I've only been in love once in my life. How I loved him, his name was Josh. I thought he was the one, the one that would always stay by my side. Forever. I was wrong. I never want to love again. Who would love me, an ugly, stupid, fat and good for nothing person. 

Nobody.

I guess a boy can dream

Tomorrow will be the first day of school. I have a feeling that this time is going to be different....not in a good way. 

You see, I have an eating disorder. My family doesn't know but I think that Jace might be a bit suspicious. I haven't eaten in nearly three weeks. I really hope that people won't notice me, well, I guess I'm used to them so I'm not that worried. It'll just be like no other day. 

Wake up

Have a shower

Get ready for school

Go to school

Come back home

Go to sleep.

Every single day the same thing. I like it that way, nothing changes. Just like I like it, just like I need it.

A/N hi, im too tired to write a long chapter. Thx for reading . drawringCredit to artist 

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