"Just kiss me." I have my eyes closed willing to get this over with. Stupid ideas from stupid friends. Bret is sweet and all but hes not the guy I'm interested in granted I don't really have a guy I'm into but still. "Jesus fine." His lips meet mine. It's nice, I won't lie better than expected but theres no fireworks going off. We both take a step back looking at eachother. I wish he'd say something so the awkward would go away. But nope. Great, why do I always have to be the one to break the silence with every damn guy I meet? I want a guy that's going to take charge but realize I won't be pushed around. Someone that will tell me where to get off at when I push him to fucking hard. Someone that isnt afraid to be critical but yet isn't an asshole all at the same time. I want honest and honest is to God damn hard to find. Especially for a girl like me. One that takes no ones shit and ain't afraid to dish it out. I'm not most girls and I think that might just be the problem. I'm not innocent, I'm not sweet unless you break through all my exteriors. Let's be honest that ain't easy I have walls upon walls and good luck trying to tear them down. I'm not the girl that gives in but damn it I want some one firm. "Look you're a great guy and all but we wouldn't be good together. " I try to say it no so harshly but let him get my point. I'm not about letting people down easy, I'm just blunt. "Its cool to be honest I was kinda wondering why you were on this stupid date with me anyway. We both know I'm not your type." I'm taken back. Hes right but no one usually admits it, atleast not to my face. I'm not exactly known for breaking peoples faces in but im sure as hell not known for being sweet and kind and non violent. I will and have hurt people. I'm not easy. I actually laugh. "You're actually perty cool you know that. You got balls I give you that. But I dont have a type and you're right even if I had one you wouldn't be it." He shrugs. "You need someone a little more hardcore, I'm just not that guy, its cool." I playfully punch him in the arm and we go our separate ways.
Author's note:
So here is the first chapter. I want your ideas on names.What do you guys of the name Amanda for the main character? I want people involved in this story and I think I may just have a few cool ideas for it.
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Not Easy
RomanceA boy who is hard to love. A girl who doesn't love. What will become of the 2 of them? *This story contains strong language and mature content. Reader discretion is advised.*
