Demi Lovato & Nick Jonas are the best of friends, but their friendship has been tested many times over the years. They have a secret that if it gets out could destroy many lives.
It's the year 2014 & my life is amazing. At least that's what everyone thinks. I put on a good act. I have had years of practice of pretending my life is the best. My name is Demi Lovato. I'm in the middle of my world tour, something I've planned for & wanted for many years. I should be on top of the world, but I'm not. Something is missing.
I'm dating Wilmer Valderrama & have been for a while now. On & off. We dated in 2010, then I went to rehab & we took a break, but stayed close friends. Then in 2012 we started hanging out again & eventually decided to try again at a relationship, since I was in a good place. I had him to thank for that good place. He was my rock, my best friend. My other best friend, Nick Jonas, was there for me, but things between him & I are complicated. We share something that not many people know about, not even Wilmer. It's something that has caused us to fight & drift apart, but it's something that will forever link us together.
Wilmer made me very happy, as happy as I was capable of, anyway. He had no idea what my inner demons were. He had no idea about the lie I was keeping to myself. He loved me & made me feel incredibly loved, which helped me stay in a happy place, even when I was miserable on the inside. When the world saw me, they saw me happy & healthy. And for the most part, I was, but most of it was a cover. Deep down, I was struggling. When I was using drugs or drinking or even cutting myself, my inner pain was easy to deal with. The drugs & alcohol made it hurt less. Now, I was clean & sober & have been for two years. Now, it was a constant struggle to not turn to some substance to numb the pain. I had to suffer, quietly. I had to stay strong. My fans & people close to me thought I was staying strong because of the addiction & the mental illness I suffered from, but none of them knew. None of them knew exactly how strong I had to be.
My life with Wilmer was great. We lived in separate places, but spent as much time together as we could. His career was crazy, keeping him busy as he made a television show, most of the time filming in Texas. My career kept me away from him. It was almost as if I spent more time with Nick than Wilmer, at times. Especially, nowadays, since Nick & I were working together.
Nick's life, right now, is unbelievable. He is the happiest I have ever seen him & sometimes it pisses me off. I can't always understand why he isn't having the same inner struggle & turmoil that I am. I guess it's different for him, because of the circumstances, but it still bothers me, & I try not to let it affect our friendship. We've overcome so much in our friendship & it's been a constant struggle over the years to maintain our friendship, but we have because we mean the world to each other. We will always have this one thing between us that no one else will have, even if we don't ever talk about it.
Not only is Nick's career taking off as a solo artist, he's in a relationship with Olivia Culpo, who was Miss U.S.A. & then was crowned Miss Universe. So she's desired by most men with a pulse & envied by most woman with a brain. I have met her a handful of times, but I am not comfortable around her for whatever reason. She's nice & all, but something about her, I just can't connect with. Nick really wants us to be friends & I try, but I can't force something that's not there. I get a feeling that she's jealous of me, too, which could add to the tension. I don't know what she has to be jealous of. Nick & I are only friends. Best friends. Sure, we have a connection that is undeniable, but we don't have feelings for each other, other than the feelings you would have for a friend or family member. Nick is like my brother & I joke that he is my twin, because we are so similar. I guess I shouldn't say he's like my brother, though, since well.... I will get to that later, but anyway, he's close to me like family. Let's leave it at that.
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