*ring* *ring*
my phone vibrates excruciatingly loudly in the silent room. i sit at the dining table with a glass of wine sat in front of me, half empty. i leave my phone face down on the table as my tired eyes watch it dance across the table from its vibrations.
i sigh and rub my eyes feeling the world crash down on me every second that passes. my phone finally stops ringing and i pull it towards me. the bright screen ignites showing the countless amounts of notifications. all from him.
5 missed call from edwin
2 unread voicemails
my eyes began to water remembering the scenario that took place only hours ago. my hands shake as my tears fall onto the lit phone screen causing my vision to blur. he wouldn't, but he still did.
my mind argues with itself as the picture of him with another girl replays itself in my mind. the four years meant nothing to him, i didn't want an explanation, i didn't want him to beg. i wanted time to pass by and i didn't want to see him face. i snap out of my thoughts when i hear thunder outside my kitchen window. what a scene.
my phone vibrates once more in my hands and i jump slightly at the feeling. anxiety build up in my system seeing another notification from the same person.
3 unread voicemails from edwin
my mind shuffles before i decide to listen to all 3 voicemails.
"hey baby why aren't you answering my calls, did you get my message. call me back please"
"im starting to get worried, why aren't you here at the house. i tried calling the other boys and they have no idea where you are either. did i do something, talk to me please"
"please talk to me, let me explain"
my hearts sinks as i finish up the voicemails. hearing his voice felt to foreign to me, i didn't know how to feel. i went off the grid. as i sat looking out of the window of my grandmothers house, i didn't know what i wanted. do i want him back? after hearing those messages i contemplates whether or not i should give him a chance.
"sweetheart, you've been staring into space for the past 30 minutes. mind if I ask what's wrong" my grandmother words full of love and concern making my heart ache and my eyes let out of the tears. my fragile interior couldn't take in all the pain. i refused to cry but in the arms of my grandmother, i needed this.
"calm down, talk to me" she says rubbing my back up and down. i sucked in a sharp breath and rubbed my eyes. "it's edwin" i play with my fingers to ignore the need to let out more tears. "someone sent me a video, of him and another girl. they were kissing. it looked like he was at a party which i didn't know about and i just don't know what to do" i said sighing dropping my head into my hands and letting out deep, difficult breaths. "oh is that so, honey listen. give this man a chance to explain himself and your heart will decide what to do next. ive seen the love you guys have for each other, he deserves a chance to win your heart back. everybody in your life will hurt you but you'll know in your heart how to handle these situations. this man loves you and you love him" my grandmother says with a sad smile holding both my hands in hers and caressing my cheek. i nod and gift her with a loving hug.
"he called me a few minutes ago asking where you were. i told him you were at the grove park, he's waiting for you. go" she says giving my back a soft rub as i gain the confidence to walk out the front door and make my way to the park. it was down the street from my grandmothers house which gave me little time to make up my mind. there's no turning back now.
i arrive at the park and look around for edwin. i walk farther into the park making my way to the playground. there i stop dead in my tracks seeing edwin sat at the edge of the slide hunched down on his phone. he seemed to be typing vigorously. i walked quietly closer to him and was about to tap his shoulder when my phone dinged. it startled me causing me to jump back and edwin to jump out of his sitting position and turn around frightened. i pulled my phone out quickly to see it was a text from him.
edwin
-where are you babygirl, let me explain myself please. i can't lose you
i look back up to edwin giving me a sad expression as he noticed my tired eyes and worn out look. without warning he ran up to me and pulled me into a tight hug. "baby im so sorry i promise you it wasn't like that. i was at a party and i got drunk. she forced herself on me i swear. it didn't last for more than 10 seconds, please forgive me. i don't want anyone else but you baby. you've been the only one for me i can't lose you" he pleads holding my face in his hands. his eyes looked sincere but i couldn't help but doubt.
"i didn't even know you were at that party edwin, i don't know anymore" i said pulling his hands off my face and dropping my head down. "give me one more chance. these past four years have been the best times of my life im not giving up on you. you are the love of my life nothing will change that" edwin lifts my chin up exposing my watery eyes and places a soft meaningful kiss on my lips. i whimper at the contact feeling as if ive fallen in love all over again.
his hands wrap around my waist pulling me closer as the kiss deepens. he pulls away and leaves a kiss on my forehead. "i love you" the words left my mouth the moment we disconnected. "i love you so much" he says leaning his forehead against mine.
"it'll never happen again" he finishes as we walk back to his car and drive home.
