hanahaki ↝ n.m

journal entry - 02

so miss choi,

i've been in the nurse's office for two periods. well jeno's been kinda more observant lately since i last wrote. this kid kept screaming nana down the halls during passing. i, of course, didn't answer because i didn't know him and it was very VERY scary.

i'm in lunch. i'm struggling to drink a bottle of water and the nurses keep telling me to eat since i'm loosing weight too quickly, but it's too difficult for me to eat.

i'll try to build up some confidence to talk to jeno again today or maybe he'll come back to me. at the least i'd love to be his friend before i pass. i wouldn't wanna die a pussy. but the you said i should let someone close read my stuff at the end of the week. so i'm letting jun do it.

other than him i know chenle. but chenle's never at school. he's always sick.. like me.. his other wasn't up for it and we had to keep silent cause chen didn't want pity love. there was also surgery but that takes away the feelings towards that person and chenle said he loved him too much to let it go.. so now he's hurting more than ever.. anyways.

i'm sorry for that.