Same script, different cast

Caught between a strong mind and a fragile heart.

Violet glares at him “fucking douchbag” she mutters under her breath. I ask her to check her phone see if Marshall had responded but there's nothing at all. My heart feels heavy as I sit and then lay back on the hospital bed. Clutching hold of violets hand tightly as the doctor inserts the probe inside me and turns on the monitor beside the bed. It’s at least three minutes before he speaks again tilting the screen in my direction . “There you go miss Taylor”  he points to a blob on the screen. “Your baby is exactly where it should be, no signs of anything abnormal at all.” I stare at the screen in disbelief “How far along is it?” I ask nervously “I would put you around five to six weeks Annie, it's still very early days" Tears prick my eyes Marshall and I have been apart for four weeks.
I was pregnant when he found out that Hannah was pregnant but I still feel like he chose her over me and that’s irrational thinking for you, he didn’t know so he didn’t choose really, I chose for him.

My body is flooded with relief as Violet cries softly beside me.  “Thank you doctor"  he smiles and gives me a photo of my blob and he leaves me to get dressed once more.  Now I feel like I'm walking on air. It's a complete mind fuck to be so low you don't want to wake up just ten minutes ago and now so happy that I have a miracle baby and it's in the right place, it's not going to kill me after all and now I have to pick myself for the tiny human growing inside of me, I can no longer afford to mope after Marshall.
I think to myself that it's a shame that he didn't show up but that's his choice I guess.

“Hey Violet! take me home please, I need a shower and maybe something to eat" she laughs at me “You do Annie, you fucking stink girl and you need to start feeding this blob or it won’t grow into a baby!" As she helps me up and we gather our belongings to leave there's a commotion going on out in the reception area I can hear someone shouting and swearing, my heart races as I realise who the angry sounding man is.

Opening the door I call his name loudly “Marshall" he stops in his tracks and turns in my direction “Annie?” he cries and stumbles towards me in through the door and past me, I close it after him and sit back down as he paces the room, pulling at his short hair in frustration.
He looks bad, his beard shaggy and untidy, black circles under his eyes and he looks like he's lost weight. “Annie, I just got the message, I came straight away. What's happening baby?” He sounds scared and ends up on his knees in front of me and I can't speak, my mouth open and closes but nothing comes out. I look to Violet for help and she speaks for me “I took Annie to her doctor, I was worried about her. She's been sick and just sleeping since you two broke up, she hasn't really spoken to anyone either. I thought she was having a breakdown"
Marshall looks away from her and looks up at me his face contorted with pain “Baby, we didn't break up. I don't want us to break up, please" he asks Violet how we ended up here from the Doctors “The doc did a few tests and Annie.... well she's pregnant Marshall...congratultions"

I sob loudly as he looks at me with pure horror spreading across his handsome face and then he jumps up clutching the sides of his head “No” he screams over and over “We can't go through that again, I can't lose you" he paces back and forth in the tiny room making me feel slightly queasy, finally I find my voice again and walk over to him, one hand touching his shoulder, he flinched pulling away from me, I feel pain for him, for how scared he is right now.
“Marshall, look, the baby is in the right place...look please. It's ok" I hold out the scan photo to me him he swipes at his eyes before taking the photo from me gently and examining it carefully “It's a fucking miracle Annie" he breathes out and I smile for the first time in weeks “It really is, we do need to talk Marshall but right now I need to go home, shower and sleep. I'll call you when I'm ready ok?”

He looks sad as he realises he's not coming home with me “I'm not with Hannah, I know that's what your thinking but I haven't touched her, I couldn't. I've been staying with Nauny" he blurts out in a hurry. I nod part of me deliriously happy about that but his mentioning  her name angering me, I can't talk shit that right now.

“I miss you Annie, more than I can tell you" he looks defeated and sad and I hate that I can't hug him and try to make him feel better and I miss him too.

“I'll call you tomorrow Marshall, I promise" He looks at me, eyes pleading with me to let him back in “Can I drive you home?” he offers but I can't stand it any longer, “No!” I pull my hand from his, standing up and walking right out of the hospital leaving Marshall looking at my retreating back.

Violet and I are both quiet on the drive back to my house “At least you don't need to report this back to him" Violet wisely keeps quiet as I continue ranting, I feel angry again “Does he think that just because I'm pregnant that I'll take his lying, cheating ass back. I bet she's in my new house settling in nicely"  I'm so confused.
Pulling up outside my home I turn to Violet and speak firmly “Thank you for today and the past few weeks but you can go home now,  I've got this!” She just stares at me as I open the car door “Annie, I just let him know how you were doing ok a couple of times that's all.  You're being stubborn.  You need him" I slam the door and stomp into my home,  slamming that door behind me too. I love Violet but I'm fed up of people telling me what to do right now.