Same script, different cast

Coming around again

Marshall bristles beside me, fists clenching and unclenching, this is obviously the first time she's sharing this snippet of information with him. I want to smash her stupid face in and I want to hit him too, how could he be so fucking stupid to trust her.
“I want to go back to my husband, but I need that money Annie otherwise he won't take me back and I'll be running forever and I'm tired of running!” She does sound tired and a little bit defeated but Instead of feeling sorry for her, I want to laugh, hysteria is building beneath my calm exterior and I need to get away before I fall apart.

“Is it definitely yours?” I direct my question to Marshall who just shrugs his shoulder, I could beat him he's being so calm, where's my fiery man when I need him?
“I don't know!” He continues staring at me like I might flip any second but I actually feel under control. “Are you going to find out?” I don't trust Hannah as at all but all he does is shrug his shoulders again. “What do you want to do Marshall?” He shrugs his shoulder again, infuriating me my anger boils over and I need to be away from them.

Snatching up my dropped bag, I pull my keys out taking the key to our new house and pulling it off my ring, I hold my hand out to him but he doesn't take it, so I throw it on his desk instead “I'm calling the realtor and taking the house off the market, I'm going to live there. You can do whatever you like but it won't be with me!” I let all of my irrational fears form into words and pour out of my mouth, he tries to stop me “Annie that's not what I want, I don't want to lose you........us" he pleads with me but I can't stand here and listen to any more of this and so I scream at him “I was a fucking idiot to trust you again, a leopard doesn't change it’s spots after all"

I need to leave and without looking at either of them again I turn and walk as quickly and as confidently as I can muster out of the office. Practically running out to my car and jumping in, I drive for a good twenty minutes before finally pulling over and succumbing to the ugly tears that have been threatening to fall since I walked into his office.

The world is playing a hideous joke on me, I'd forgiven him for his infidelity and I'd probably still forgive him after this but she's carrying his baby, the baby I couldn't give him, the one thing we'd spoken non stop about, excited to adopt a child of our own and now here she was Hannah with the final nail in the coffin of my relationship, a poor innocent baby that was going to be used as a pawn by her. Life was so unfair.

My phone rang for the millionth time since I'd left the studio and I vaguely noted it was Marshall yet again which further pisses me off and I'm grateful for the anger as it fuels me to start my car and head for home again.

I spend the rest of the afternoon tearing opening packing boxes and shoving all of Marshall's belongings into bags and dumping them outside the door, I have my locks changed after I spend ages removing my house from sale. I text Marshall telling him to come and get his stuff and I sit on the stairs waiting to hear if he comes, he does and he tries his key in the door, I listen to him swearing and calling out to me, my anger beginning to wilt as tears take over while I wait for him to leave but he doesn't and I can't stand it any longer I need someone to get rid of him.

“Violet, I need you to come over and tell Marshall to leave please" I can barely get the words out “What's happened Annie? What's that noise?” her voice calms me a little enough that so I can speak “I've had the locks changed, he's kicking the door, he won't go" I start bawling again as Violet hangs up “I'm coming".

When she finally arrives I can hear her talking in a calm voice to Marshall, he stops trying to get in through the door at last and I watch through the window upstairs as she helps him put the bags in his car, I'm guessing he's not told her what's happened.

When he drives away I go back downstairs and let Violet in the house. I tell her everything that happened at the studio “It's over Violet, she can give him the one thing I can't" she hugs me closer to her “I know you don't want to hear this right now Annie but he's in agony, he loves you!” I cry all night on her and the image of him holding her hand, all the photos and messages she sent me while they were fucking, Marshall surprising me in Rome and his ambivalence this afternoon towards me spins round and round in my head, over and over making me feel sick and dizzy.

My heart and chest hurt like I'm physically injured, not just mentally and emotionally broken. I can't shake it off.

He rings my phone constantly until the battery dies but I can't speak to him, I don't know what to say, my rational brain tells me that he was tricked into getting her pregnant, but the outside tells me that if he didn't cheat on me in the first place then this wouldn't even be an issue right now, maybe we just weren't meant to be.

I'm running on anger, very little food and quite a bit of wine for the next two weeks ignoring all efforts Marshall is trying to make to get in touch with me. Violet dare not mention his name in front of me as it causes me to shout and scream at her for keeping on defending him.
Nauny has been to visit me everyday and every day I tell him to go, he's not welcome at my house, I've unpacked all of the boxes that I’d pack to move, my belongings back were they belong.

Towards the end of the second week apart from him, things begin to change, the anger that was driving me to continue my life has drained out of me completely and I can't get out of bed.

I don't want to get up and I call my office telling them to cancel my meetings for the foreseeable and promoted the woman who'd looked after my business for me while I was in Europe. After I've done that I don't answer the phone again when it rings, it'll only be Marshall anyway. My heart aches waking up alone each day. I don't eat, Violet forces water on me, she's practically moved in anyway and I'm being petty with her because I know she's reporting back to him, I caught her before I took to my bed.

I just lay about staring at the ceiling, I've not showered or changed my clothes in a week now but I'm beyond caring. I have no energy, I'm making myself Ill by not eating and trying to throw up nothing is causing me pain.

“Annie, please get up" Violet pleads with me “Hailie's here to see you" I turn away from Vi, my heart breaking over because I was going to be mean to Hailie and I hated myself for it. “Tell her to go away" I say before crying again. Is this my life now? I may as well just call it quits.