Secrets// Jhope x Reader // 18+

Chapter 1

I sit on bus 5 alone waiting for my stop to come, it's 8:30pm, my father is gonna scream at me. I don't want to hear him yelling when he's drunk. It's rare for him to even be close to sober.

I stand up and pull the emergency stop rope. I hear the bus brakes squeak as I feel my body lounge forward a bit before the doors open. The stop wasn't close to mine but I don't wanna heard my dad yelling at me.

I step off the bus and realize I'm only a couple of blocks from my house. My house to the left, the city to the right. I go right because I want to avoid the consequence of coming home late. It's not like my dad is going to remember if I came home last night. Tomorrow morning I can just tell him I went out to get groceries, but I forgot my wallet so I can leave again. I don't do much when I'm out, I really just walk around the city and watch cars go by, couples taking walks, kids playing at the parks, there's a lot I can say but it's to much. Sometimes I would meet up with my friends if I was in the mood.

I didn't have a boyfriend if you were wondering, my last relationship had ended bad. Ever feel like your heart is getting ripped out of your chest, or your getting stabbed in the back, yea, that's how I felt. He cheated and I let him do it, I didn't want anyone to come in between me and him but I let him cheat, I knew it was going on I just loved him so much I didn't want to let go. At some point I had reached my end with him and I was tired of waisting my tears for him. He broke me, my heart, my trust, and who I was. I was tore apart and broken down on the inside and I couldn't do anything about it.

I shook my head getting it off my mind and went to the nearest 7-11 that one of my closest friends works at.

"hey! Eun-Jae!" My friend said to me as I walked into the store. "It's another one of those nights" I said to her while I go look for my favorite chips. "I'll pay" she says as I put them on the counter looking for my wallet in my pocket " No sun-bi it's fine, you always pay for my stuff" she shock her head while pushing the chips towards me. "Take them. Please" I rolled my eyes and grunted a little, I took the chips off the counter and went to the corner to eat them.

Sun-bi: Do you think that it will get better?

Eun-Jae: probably not, I would have to be pretty damn lucky just for him to be sober when I'm there for 2 seconds.

Sun-bi: Does he hit you?...

I sigh again and stand up to throw away my trash, as I throw it away so strange guy walks into the 7-11 and makes eye contact with me. I stare back then turn around quickly to go tell Sun-bi she had a customer.

While Sun-no handles her customer I take a moment to remember who i am, because i'm not the same as I used to be. I want my old self back. You could never understand how badly i wanted my old life back. I used to be all sunshine's and giggles but when mom died dad became a drug addict who wouldn't stop doing drugs and drinking so much alcohol and would always hit me when i did nothing wrong.

It wasn't long before Sun-bi was done handling her customer, i could hear her in the back of my head i just didn't pay any attention to her talking to me, soon enough I had a pork skewer packet thrown at the back of my head.

Sun-bi- Helloooo earth to Eun-jae, man whats going on with you now a days?

Eun-jae- I need to run away, somewhere where i won't be found.

I stand up from the seat i was sitting in while bumping the table and waking into a chip rack and nearly knocking it over. I walk out the store and walk the opposite direction of my house. I didn't really know where i was going but i'll get used to it. I kept my head on the same question repeating it in my mind over and over again " Where am i gonna go". I never want to see my father again, because of what he put me through he shouldnt have a daughter, for all i care i could report him to the police. I cared to much about him to do that, but now, i'm done with his bull shit.

At this point i'm still walking to who knows where. I have yet to find a place to stay, i into have one change of clothes and a few dollars on hand, I stop in my tracks when i notice a the mysterious guy i saw at the 7-11  walking into a nearby subway.

I realized i haven't eaten in a few hours so mine as well grab a bite. I go inside the subway and get my usual, and Italian Spicy with no tomatoes, gross, i've never really like the though of tomatoes, they are just a little to squishy for my liking.

I notice that guy again sitting at the table behind me, i had the window seat so i could see his reflection pretty clearly, he also had ordered the same thing i did, maybe he doesn't like tomatoes. I got up from my chair and through away my trash. Not long after i see him walking out of the subway and walk by he same direction as me. A lot of thoughts had came to my head, but i really hope none of them came true....