the over powering factor

part one

"he drank last night, like he does every night." i cried into my current boyfriend's shoulder. he rubbed my head as i cried. "he got rowdy again and started pushing around my mother. i told him to stop but then he started to hit me." i continued to cry. i couldn't stop.

"babe, listen to me. you need to look at me." i raised my head so i could see his face. i had mascara smudged all over my face but i didn't care because we had been to together for 8 months now. "you need to tell someone about this. i understand you're scared but that's not a good enough excuse to let him push you and your mother around." i started wiping my face with a tissue.

"Chase you don't understand. he has threatened me over and over again. last night, he told me if i ever tell anyone about it he will bash my head in." i sniffled and chase handed me another tissue to blow my nose with.

it's 3 in the morning i ran over here after my father fell back asleep so i could get away from him. my mom had gone to work so i knew she was safe.

"Alexa, i really don't give a fuck what he said he was or wasn't going to do. this is not right for you or your mom to go through. tell someone or i will do it for you. okay?"

"okay fine. now can we just drop this. i kinda don't wanna think about him anymore."

"sure." he leaned in and kissed my lips. he got up and grabbed me sweat pants and a hoodie since i hadn't changed out of my clothes from the last day. "since we are up and it's 3, do you just want to skip school, you could have a day off and get some rest?"

"sure that would be great." i said while taking off my shirt that had a tear stains all over it. as i turned around, i saw Chase grinning at me. "what are you looking at" i said in a joking tone.

"what do you think i'm looking at? i'm looking at your sexy ass body." i hate when he uses that tone, and when that tone comes out, i also know exactly what he wants. he comes up to me and starts kissing me. we have gotten stuck in a long kiss that hadn't stopped, just deepened. he pulled away and lead me to his bed which was across the room since we were on the couch before. he sat down first and i climbed on top of him and continued kissing him. he pulled away again and said;

"how's this for getting a break?" i smirked and kissed him again. he slowly started to unbutton my pants and i pulled away.

"babe, not tonight." i gave him that look and he knew exactly why.

"well since we can't, yk, get changed and i'll get a movie on and we can just chill. also you're tooth brush is still in my bathroom from last time."

without saying anything, i grabbed the sweatshirt and the sweatpants, which were his favorite, and also my favorite, pair of joggers and went into the bathroom to change.

his joggers were a little too big on me because i'm a very tiny girl and the hoodie was my favorite hoodie, the red nike one. i looked at myself in the mirror and saw how wack my hair looked. i grabbed one of his hair ties, he has long hair with shaved sides so he puts it in a man bun at time, and flipped my hair upside down. i grabbed all of it and twisted it into a messy bun. i picked up my tooth brush and brushed my teeth before i went back into his room. on my way out of the bathroom i saw his dad getting ready to leave for work.

"another one of those nights huh?" he questioned me.

"yeah, sadly." i frowned

"well we are always happy to let you stay here to make sure you're always safe."

"awe thanks pat." i said with a smile.

"you guys should probably get some sleep. good bye for now."

"bye for now"

i made my way back into his room and he was laying the bed with his dog, he was rubbing his tummy and babbling at him.

"wow so now your replacing me huh." i said with a funny tone.

"your know it babe" he said as he smiled.  he gestured for me to lay down and i lied my head on his chest.

"why can't i have a normal life?" i questioned.

"well if you had a normal life you wouldn't be the person you are now and if you weren't the person you are now, we may not have met and i don't know what i would if i hadn't met you." he kissed my fore head. "now stop questioning things and get some rest you'll need it."

he reached for his blanket and covered the both of us. i rested my hand on his chest and he wrapped his arms around me. i closed my eyes and let the world around me disappear. soon enough his grip loosened which is how i knew he fell asleep. i slowly and carefully reached into my bag and grabbed a bottle of pills. they were my sleeping meds to help me sleep. i popped in three of them and swallowed them dry. soon enough the world melted away and i fell asleep.

when i woke up the next morning, he was up before me because i was alone in bed. i checked the clock right next to the bed and it read 12:24. shit i really did sleep. i slowly got out of bed and made my way to the bathroom to check how i looked before i went downstairs. my hair was a mess so i quickly fixed it. i went downstairs to find chase at the stove making breakfast. he had his oil pen in his hand and was hitting it as he sung along to britney spears like the grown ass man he is. i walked up to him and he smiled as he saw me.

"good morning beautiful. how did you sleep." his face dropped as soon as he saw the bags under my eyes. he knows.  "you took them didn't you."

"uhh- umm- yeah." i couldn't get the words out.

"when did you take them? i was with you the whole night and you didn't move at all." he was upset. he saw me eyeing the oil pen and held it out for me to take it. i took a big hit before i let myself talk again.

"i did right after you passed out. i just reached into my bag for them. i'm sorry, i only took three." i took another hit of the pen, this one bigger then the last.

"babe, that's still not good. you need to get off of those. i keep getting scared that you will OD anyway now." he already had his hair in a man bun and a couple stands were falling out of it. i took one last hit, doing tricks with it because why not and handed him back the oil pen and frowned.

"i know but i only took three last night which means i'm getting better because usually i take over five or so."

"okay fine i'll drop it. but anyway i'm making pancakes with white chocolate chips and rainbow sprinkles just like your sister taught me to." i frowned at that last part and he took note.

"hell, i really miss Anika. i haven't seen her in months." she had gone away to college about 4 months ago and left me with the shitty parents we have.

"i know i do too but remember she's coming back next month." it got really hot in here so i'm going upstairs to change into spandex.

"i'm going upstairs to change i'll be right back." i turned and went to change. i grabbed my spandex i wore under my dress the day before and put them on. i stopped in the bath room on the way downstairs and looked in the mirror. i looked fat so i walked over the to toilet and made myself throw up. i've been doing this for years and nobody knows besides Chase, he's the only one who knows i do this. i brushed my teeth before i went back down stairs and threw myself on the couch. i took out my phone and it said 2 missed calls from don't answer, that was my ex.

"who's don't answer?" chase questioned. he scared me because i thought he was in the kitchen.

"oh, he's my ex. but i don't like to talk about him." i said getting quieter at the last part. he was my boyfriend before Chase and he used to be abusive.

"oh okay. that's fine." he said with a cheerful tone, respecting my privacy. "well i finished the yummy pancakes so come and eat while they are hot!"

A/N!!
good day! i just decided to write a new story because i'm feeling hella creative at the moment. i'm trying a new style of writing so i hope you guys like it! anyway enjoy part one of many!!! good evening thots❤️