When He Snaps- A Villain Deku fanfic

Monday

Deku POV

I'm not sure what happened exactly. 

I don't know what started it. 

I just know that I was done. 

I had snapped. 

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"DEKU" I bolted up. I guess I had zoned out. When I had finally gotten focused on my surroundings again, I had realized that I was at U.A High. My eyes searched around the classroom to find who yelled at me, only to see him right in front of my face. 

"Oh! Hi, Kacchan!" I said, with a smile on my face. "You need something?"

"I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM GOING TO WIN AGAINST YOU IN TRAINING TODAY!"

Oh, that's right, we are doing one-on-one sparring matches in Hero Training today...and I was put against Kacchan. 

shit. 

"O-ok Kacchan. I g-guess I'll have to work really hard today!" I say with another smile. I am going to beat him. Just like....just like all the times he's beaten me. 

Kacchan put his hands on my shoulders, I tensed, he has done this move many times before. I start to feel a burn in my shoulders from Kacchan's hands.  He put on his sickly sweet smile before spitting out through his teeth "I'm gonna do a lot more than beat you, I'm going to kill you. Maybe then you'll learn your place."

I'm used to this. Since we were little he has done this to me. It's nothing new. 

That move, that burning of my shoulders, it triggered something and a sudden rush comes through me as I remember all the things he's said and done to be all over the years. "You'll never be a hero", "Useless Deku", "Damn Nerd", "You'll never hang with the best of the best!"

I start remembering all the times he's burned my shoulders, when he threw my journal out the window, hit me, kicked me....everything. 

Then one memory knocks me out of my spiral. 

"If you wanna be a hero so bad, there is a way. Just take a swan dive off the roof of this building and pray you'll be born with a quirk in your next life."

He told me to kill myself. 

He told me to kill myself!

I feel tears well up in my eyes. 

*school bell sound*

I am once again snapped out of my thoughts as the school bell rings. It's time for hero training. With Kacchan. I almost start laughing just thinking about it. 

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I don't know why I keep getting paired up with Kacchan to do things. Just as I don't know why whenever we fight it's both of our faults. I guess none of the teachers know about our actual history. Or maybe they don't care. Either way, here we are, me and Kacchan, about to start fighting. 

We are doing individual battles, one team goes into the plain field to fight, the others watch the battle. The fight goes on until someone taps out. Or becomes unconscious. Or, in my case, dies. 

"Ready? FIGHT" I hear All Might shout. 

As soon as the start is announced, a blur of black and orange zooms up to me faster than I can account for. I brace myself for an impact, maybe a punch, until I hear something being whispered in my ear.

"Remember in middle school? All the times I hurt you? What is about to happen is going to be 1000x worse"

I can almost hear the smirk in his face. 

It sickened me. 

And I snapped. 

"YOU BASTARD"

I punch him in the gut faster than ever before, faster than he can get away. Since, the internship, I have gotten a better control on my powers. But this was something else. This was adrenaline mixed with pure, black hate. 

Kacchan doubles over in pain, quickly recovering as he prepares his next attack. I don't care about any of that however, because I am too busy screaming. 

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? DO YOU HAVE THAT MUCH OF A SUPERIORITY COMPLEX?"

"Oh come on Deku, you were just a wimp. You were a wimp back in middle school, and you are a wimp now. You're a rock stuck in my shoe."

I dodge another attack as I punch him in the gut again. 

"Damn deku," Kacchan curses, "I never did anything that bad to you. I just had to show you your place."

One for All sparks around me, I am crackling with green electricity as my face turns red in anger. 

"YOU CALL CONSTANTLY BURNING MY SHOULDERS 'NoT AnYtHiNg BaD'?? YOU CALL CALLING ME NAMES, SAYING I'M WORTHLESS, THREATENING ME, 'nOt ANyThInG BAd'??"

I charge forward, running at speeds I have never reached before. Kacchan anticipates my attack, using his explosions to propel himself up, then hitting an explosion at my back, causing me to double over in pain. 

"Yeah, it wasn't bad. You are just a worthless little Deku. You can't do anything right."

At this moment, time seems to slow. I utter out the words that I have wanted to say since the original ones where spoken.

"you told me to kill myself."

"You told me: If you really want a quirk so bad, there is one way to get it, just pray that you'll be born with a quirk in your next life...and take a swan dive off the roof of the building."

"YOU TOLD ME I WOULD BE BETTER OFF DEAD"

"YOU TOLD ME I WOULD NEVER BE A HERO"

"YOU HELD ME BY MY COLLAR AGAINST THE WALL OF OUR SHITTY MIDDLE SCHOOL AND TOLD ME NOT TO APPLY TO U.A"

"YOU BULLIED ME FOR 10 YEARS"

"AND. YOU. CALL. THAT. NOTHING"

I turned around, to see the surprised and sad faces of my classmates, I had forgotten they were here, I had forgotten they had been watching. I see Kacchan at the other side of the field. But my vision is blurry, my eyes are filled with tears, and I realize how exhausted I am, I start getting dizzy. As Kacchan starts coming towards me, I faint. 

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I wake up the next day, in the recovery room. I don't know how I got there, but I do remember hearing yelling as I went down, and a flash of All Might's face before I lost consciousness. 

I look at the time and see that school is going to start soon. 

I am not ready. 

A/N make sure to tell me if this is absolute crap. I..uh...i'm tired. and I don't really know what was going on in my head...so......have fun.