Beauty and the Beast (markhyuck)

001.

Haechan

- I can't, - I cried. - I can't do this anymore...

- Shhh, hyung, just calm down, - Johnny whispered and hugged me.

We were sitting behind the scenes and talking about me. And once again everything turned to Mark Lee.

- You know how I feel? I think... I will kill myself.

- Hey hey, I'll keep you safe. Keep trying, don't die.

I smiled to Johnny and he smiled back.

- Guys, only 5 minutes left! - we heard Yuta's voice.

- By the way, I didn't know some facts you told me... And don't cry anymore. Just for this evening, - he said and we stood up.

- Let's do this.

Mark

The fans. They were everywhere, some of them shouting my name. I hated that. I hated myself for what I did to Haechan two months ago... But I had to. We're still not talking and I feel like he's depressed again. And only Johnny can help him. Because he knows something I don't. Our fight has created a big wall between us.

- Hyung, you good? - I felt Jeno's hand on my back. He was a little bit sad.

- You look great, - I smiled.

- What were you thinking about... You look sad. You can trust me.

Then I heard Haechan talking to Johnny. I looked at them. Donghyuck was crying and Johnny tried to help him. What's wrong??

- Haechan, - I closed my eyes and felt the tears coming back.

Soon our show have started and, for the 127th time in this month, I tried to avoid Haechan... It was alright. I wasn't thinking about him all the time but I saw his sad eyes on our performance.

After the concert me and Taeil went to hotel, straight to our room. I felt lonely, so we ate all the food we've had and talked nonsenses. Taeil fell asleep.

Then my phone buzzed. That was Johnny.

Ama-john: were meeting now

Ketchup: no fucking way it's almost 1am...what do you need

Ama-john: were waiting for you

Ketchup: k we're coming

I stood up.

Ama-john: no. youre coming. only you

Dafaq? Oh well. I opened the door. And I saw Johnny in his pajamas.

- Wanna dance? - he smirked and suddenly grabbed my hand. This is Johnny, daddy John. I giggled and closed the door. We went to the other room, it was opened. And really loud. I saw Jaemin dancing with Jeno, that made me smile. There was Yuta on his phone...and Haechan. He was inside the balcony, smoking. He does that when he's nervous.

Nomin saw me and came to say hi. Johnny grabbed Yuta's phone and threw it away.

- Man, it's iPhone, iPhone X! Don't you dare to do that! - Yuta screamed and we all laughed.

- How is Hyuck? - I asked.

- He's smoking nonstop. Can you save him? - Jeno responded with a question.

- But why? Like, I know that he's sad because we've had a fight two months ago but this is only the second day he's acting like that.

- He's just sad. You were his best friend, - Jaemin said.

And then I heard sad Haechan's voice, he came out from the balcony:

- Okay, it's enough, I'm going to die.

Then he saw me.

~flashback~

- Why are you looking at me like that and then pushing away??

- Mark...

- So you want me to leave you alone? Okay then! Live by yourself douchebag! And never ever you dare to call me Markie, do you understand?!

- Mark, I...

- Donghyuck, I know you hate me. I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT YOU'RE ALWAYS HURTING ME, TELL ME WHY, PLEASE!!!

Haechan started to cry and I felt weak.

- Donghyuck, please, just say it. I won't hurt you.

- I know! But you won't understand.

His tears made me cry too.

- I will try. I'm your best friend hyung...

- Just leave me alone. Forever.

I was so shocked I felt the tears burning on my cheeks.

- But why?? I did NOTHING to you Donghyuck!

- You did! - he cried.

- So tell me WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING??!

- CAN YOU JUST LEAVE? And don't you dare to come back, - he was brushing the tears away.

And then I felt it, I was really angry. So I punched Haechan into the face and screamed:

- OKAY I'M LEAVING.

~~

I see it clearly, he can remember this too.

- Hi, Mark, - he said and looked away quickly.

- We need to talk, - I grabbed his hand and we went to the bathroom. I sat down on the floor, he did this too. I was slowly rubbing his hand to make him calm.

- Okay, what do you want, - he asked.

- You.

- Excuse me? - Haechan choked.

- Just kidding. I wanted to say sorry again for what happened.

- I think I need to say sorry, - he looked straight into my eyes and I stopped rubbing his hand.

- It's not your fault I punched you...

- It's all my fault, - he nodded. - I just wanna die. I'm so sorry, it won't happen again, I promise.

- But can you tell me why you're always hurting me?

His eyes said no. I just hugged him tightly and breathed in his orange, now cigarette aroma.

- It feels so good to feel you again Hyuck.

His heart race almost made me think he's panicking. He's just nervous because he thinks you can punch him again, I thought and I let him go.

- Don't cry for me, it hurts so bad, - I said and felt the tears coming.

He didn't answer and we stood up at the same moment.

- I miss you hyung, - I burped.

He went out from the bathroom and mumbled something like I miss you more than you think but probably he said I hate you more than you think. You can hear anything you want.

I hated myself too.