The product of a mental case

My life

Monalisa's pov

I am 15 years now and I still constantly ask my parents about the scar on my left hand they refuse to tell me how it got there they like to avoid the topic very wierd but my parents have problems.

15 and in grade 11 at The memorial girls college just down the street I had never ever dared to walk to school even if the school was so close

I have never spent the night at my freinds house

I have never been allowed to attend extracurricular activities immediately the school bell rang I was expected to be on my way to the car where the driver would take me home.

Well my life is depressing and Many people think I'm weird,well why won't they when they only see me in school.

I have never attended any party I was invited to.

I was never to go on dates my father instructed, when I told him about a cute boy who asked me if we could go to a lovely restaurant le priapic I in the centre of the town where they served delicious seafood

I explained "dad it's not a date he just wants to take me out''he slapped me and told me never to tell him about any boys again.

I have never attended any diner dances and I am too study all day

There is tv but all the channels that are on the sky decoder are blocked so I can only watch family rating and not even pg or pg 13 and mostly cartoons

I am too excel in every-subject and my grades are good.

I remember an unfortunate day when I got home and i got a c in religious studies and got an a in all subjects including music and entertainment which was cumpolsory.

My mum beat me up and locked me up in her closet shouting that how can I fail to do well in my religious studies and instead pass music and entertainment

When my dad came home that night and my mum told him the news he used the hot iron on my bare bum while he was screaming "your religion is the most important do you understand" I swear I couldn't sit for a month

Many times I get the inspiration to just runaway but how will I cope where will I go would I end up on the streets a prostitute would someone agree to take me in,is that a wise move ?I often ask myself

I envy my peers I see how they just go around not caring not looking back Or worrying

What would my parents think most of the girls have even lost their virginity like I haven't even been kissed.

Life is depressing and I have decided that this year my life would change or else I would kill myself at the end of this year