The Truth Is Blossoming

I Was Happy Once, Was I?

     I have always been considered as 'perfect' in the eyes of my family and friends, as I have always smiled, had good grades, basically what everyone considers 'perfect'. I was known by every single person in the village, although, the village was big and far away from the city, people somehow know me. I had a great life, I had a loving family, supportive and funny friends but, my world was crumbling slowly and I didn't even know about it.                  

     I  always felt lonely at home, so my parents decided to have another child and after a few months my baby sister "April Rose" was born, we were five years apart. One day my friends came to my house, with their younger siblings, while our siblings played, we went on an adventure to find a rare and exotic flower so, we can learn about it, when out of nowhere we heard a hiss and saw something dark in the grass, when we realized it was a snake we bolted back to my house. Now I am fifteen years old and I consider myself mature, I think that I can handle pressure and the truth.      

    Something is going on with my parents, they have been talking (or dare I say whispering) about something related to me and my "past" for the past 11 years. When I asked about it, they said that it was none of my business, excuse me it is related to me therefore it is My business. I was so mad at them that I never wanted to talk to them,the last thing I said to them was:"I   wish you would just trust me like I trusted you. Is it that hard to trust your daughter, I promise I am mature enough to handle the truth."And they didn't care, if I can't trust my parents who could I trust. I started becoming paranoid, that my parents tried to abandon me, but failed, instead of me being a gift to them, I am a burden... My sister ignores me now.
  
     I  became cold with my friends, they want me to go back to being 'perfect', but I yelled at them saying:"WHY DOES EVERYONE WANT ME TO BE 'PERFECT' NOBODY'S PERFECT JUST LET ME BE WHO I AM. YOU, ALL OF YOU PEOPLE ARE USING ME, WHEN YOUR DONE WITH ME, YOU THROW ME OUT. WAS I JUST A 'PERFECT' AND STUPID TOY IN YOUR HANDS??!!"
It feels like I am changing. I am afraid. alone. And I put it on myself.....

    ... No one is to blame but myself....