*LETTING GO*
I have been struck down; reduced to just a portion of the man I used to be, by a loss so deep. It's clawing and burning within me. It writhe my wrenched heart to bleed. My veins fumingly runs resulting to rise in my body temperature.
My teary bloodshot eyes blurred my vision. I stood numbed as I felt the room spinning around me. I felt suffocated.
Why does my head felt heavy as if I have been whacked with a metal?
None of their words makes sense. None of it does.
This is a nightmare! It must be! This is not right. This is can't be true! It can't be real!
I wanted to shout! To yell! To screamed at them. but I couldn't find my words.
I can hear their voices, I can see their blurry images and their mouths moving but I can't comprehend to any of what they are saying. None of their words registered in my brain and none will.
It's meant to be a beautiful day; a special day too.
The mosque is congested. There's no place for you to to set another foot. Today is supposed to be the most happiest day of my life. I couldn't understand what is happening. The world seems foreign to me and the people looks like phantom preying on the only human; which is me. I should be wed to Noor today. Noor... Her smiley face was the last thing that flashed accross my face before succumbing to darkness.
Recap
There's this calming feeling about that particular night. The lustrous moon shone brightly protecting the twinkling sparky stars.
She threaded the familiar path she'd walked through a hundred times. Her gown swept the floor as she walked. Her oversized veil draped securely from her head over her body. she looked as beautiful as always. But Today is an exception.
"Come down, under the umbrella tree, I want to see how beautiful you look today." He had texted her.Her heart drummed against her ribcage as she remembered his words. Her husband to be. Despite so, she smiled sweetly in the dark.
Butterflies filled her stomach, inflicting funny feelings.
She truly did look beautiful. Her make up was perfect. Very light yet elegant. Her red gown hugged her upper body and flowed down from her waist in giant waves. The bright red colour complimenting her chocolate skin tone. Her heart beats faster with every step she took. Her palms sweating.
He stood under the tree shade leaning his back against the tree. His head laid low with his hands reluctantly slipped into his pants pocket.
He looked up when he heard her light footsteps. As she walked near the trees, the cold breeze washed over her pulling at her veil lightly.
She felt his immerse stare on her as she approached him. Her eyes casted on the floor.
She stopped in her tracks, standing two feet away from him.
He stared at her with an unflinching gaze that speaks of nothing but love and admiration.
She looked up at him, and their gaze locked. His eyes held so much emotions that only her could understand. she's the most beautiful thing he's ever seen. She looked like an angel. Her smile is breathtaking and he can do anything it takes him to see her smile. He still can't believe that in less than twenty four ours they will be bind together for life. She'll become his and he'll proudly call her 'mine'. That's how it's meant to be. He's going to love her and care for her. Their life is going to be beautiful as long as they have each other. A rush of emotion flowed through him and without an ounce of thought, he closed the distance between them. Enclosing her in his arms. It was something he's never done before considering he's not her Muharram, yet he didn't know what came over him this particular night. There's an ache in his heart, a lingering feeling that makes him feel as if he'll not make it to the next day. Yes! He his heart beats erratically not for her but because he knows he is sinning yet he can pull back. He respects her yet he can't bring himself to pull back.
"Noor; my love, you look so beautiful. I can't wait to call you mine!." He whispered in her ear
She smiled profusely at his words. The entire house is filled with relatives and friends.
"You have seen me, I'll go back before someone noticed my absence" she said moving out of his embrace
"You can always tell them that you were with me. " He grinned staring at her.
She glared at him without another word and turned to leave.
He caught her veil halting her steps.
"It won't be in your favor to disrespect me Noor. Remember whose house you will be sleeping in tomorrow" he said sternly yet playful.
"Whatever I'm going" she said as she took her leave
"You wanna know where we will be going for our honey moon? My dad is going to surprise us." He yelled after her
She shook her head and smiled walking away, holding her gown to avoid stumbling in the dark
