My Thug Nigga (Book 2)

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"Are you close family?" He asked.

"Yeah we his uncles" Armon said.

The doctor gave us a remorseful look, Armon and I shared a look "What?" I asked.

"Um Mr.Sails passed away during surgery, we were sussecful on taking the bullet out but when we looked at the moniter his heart had stopped-" the doctor was cut off.

"MAN FUCK YOU MEAN YOU WERE SUSSECFUL, NIGGA AS FAR AS WE KNOW IF HE AIN ALIVE YOU WERENT SUSSEFUL WITH SHIT!" Armon went off.

I was lost for words, I couldn't curse, I couldn't yell, I felt guilty.....no matter how you look at it, it was our fault.

I took a seat and put my head in my hands, he would've been alive if we didn't drop him off. We should've went with him.

My phone flashed again and I looked at it.

ClarenceNYC💯: aight tell me what the doctor say.

ClarenceNYC💯: aye yo Trey what he say?

To ClarenceNYC💯: he ain make it bro.....

ClarenceNYC💯: stop fuckin playin that shit ain funny....

To ClarenceNYC💯: I'm deadass

Incoming call from ClarenceNYC💯...

I stood up and walked out ignoring my brother whom was going back and forth with the doctor.

I picked up the call and sat down on the steps, "hello"

"MAN FUCK YOU MEAN HELLO! YOU KNOW WHY I CALLED! WHATCHU MEAN HE AIN MAKE IT!?"

"The doctor said he ain make it" I said

"WHY IS YOU SO CALM MOE?!"

"Ion know..."

Beep Beep..

I removed the phone from my ear and saw that he hung up, I walked back inside and looked at Armon, he was now crying with a red face.

"WHAT AM I SUPOSE TO TELL MY SISTER!? HER FIRST BORN WAS SHOT AND KILLED BY A DEAD MAN!" He cried.

That was it, I let my tears fall and I fell on my knees, my first nephew just died because of me.

Fuck did you do Chris!

Clare pov:

I hung up and walked back into the room, Queen was sweating and screaming as the doctors kept telling her to push.

What was I gonna tell my baby, she can't handle anotha loved one dying.

I walked over and grabbed her hand, I looked at her face and saw Cj, I started crying, letting my tears fall, this suppose to be a happy day wit all my kids, so tell me why God decided to take one away as he give me one.

When they cleaned Legend, they handed him to us so we could hold him.

He looks just like me, I smiled a lil "Don't chu ever leave us okay" I whispered into his ear.

I passed him to Queen who was cheesing like a mf. I'd hate to wipe that smile off her face....

After a few hours, me and Queen was finally alone, baby Renzo was sleep and me and Queen was up talking.

"So did you hear from Trey" she asked.

My heart rate sped up a lil, "Um yeah he said they good, but they gon order some pizza" I said.

She grilled me "boy I mean my brotha not my son" she said. I sighed and pulled my chair closer to the bed, "Queen I'm bout to tell you something you might not wanna hear" I said.

I felt tears fall as I thought about the text messages and the phone call. "Clarence stop fuckin playin wit me" she said.

"Queen" I said, she shook her head as tears fell from her eyes "Clare please don't tell me" she muttered.

"He's gone Queen...Cj's dead" I said.

She closed her eyes and let all her tears fall "he....can't be....not my baby, why God gotta take him away too" she cried.

"Ion know Queen but we gotta stay strong, for everybody" I said.

"Fuck you mean Clare, I can't keep doing this, fuck everybody else what about me! Why can't I be weak for a second! My first born just died because of two niggas I once called my family! Let me cry, let me morn! Please!" She cried.

I nodded and jus sat back.

FUCK!

(Damn man🤦‍♀️😭)