have you ever been in love? ah, it's a wonderful feeling. until you fight. and fix it! and then fight again. and fix it again! and then the timing gets off and you realize that this is not going to last. and then here it comes, the dreaded break-up. he says "we'll still be great friends, you're an amazing person and i would love to stay friends" and you agree because you have nothing else to do without losing him completely. and then you text each other as friends. and you realize that you're still deeply in love with him. he says he feels the same but doesn't want to get back together right away. so now you wait for the time that may never even come. you're so very in love with the boy that has broken your heart and his at the same time because of his inability to think before he acts. you love him, and he loves you. but the timing doesn't love either of you. you begin to cry tears of sadness instead of tears of stress. you tell him how you feel. he apologizes. he wants you back and you want him. but no one will make an effort to do anything about it. you wish his mind went the same direction as yours. if you still love each other, get back together. but, oh, yes. the timing. it's always the motherfucking timing. who cares what we feel? is the timing right? are we too stressed at the moment??
you need him. he's the only thing that keeps you sane. he was your only source of genuine happiness. and you were his. you both let that go. you both made this mistake. you wonder how it will end up. will he ask to get back together? will you be the one to make this move? it's all in the matter of what happens. it's basically in the hands of fate by now. you ponder of an outcome of different scenarios. you talk to him about how you feel. you express your undying love and care for him. he responds with equal love and care. but the timing can still change everything. you can't stop thing about him.
i love him.
